Today I am Henry Rollins

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Last September I was getting my brother some books for his birthday and I saw a few Henry Rollins books, one of which was his journals. There was a whole chapter devoted to the entries he made on his birthday, and it was interesting to see a snapshot, year by year, of how someone's life changes and/or remains the same. It's also interesting to sit

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oif.

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Mmm.. I think you might get on yourself too much about where you should be and where you want to be in the future. Judging yourself too strictly. Honestly, almost everyone, if they look to their ideal future, gets depressed because it looks aeons away. And then you look to your past because you fucked up the shortcut to getting there, somehow. That's what's "better" about being older--hindisght tells you what's possible, even if you didn't jump at the opportunity when the situation was seemingly laid out for ya. ..you can almost always go back and do something if its that important for you, though.

Hey I've been there ;) I refuse to think that far in the future anymore. It may be inane of me, but as long as I'm on a path (roundabout it may be) to getting somewhere, and I'm enjoying myself now, I say fuck it. Hell, you may never get there... and what you want sometimes changes. Don't browbeat yourself too much, dude. No one that cares about you labels you so harshly as you do yourself--you may expect you're better than certain circumstances but you've definitely got time to turn it around. You're not 65, bud, 24! It's our year! If you wanna change things, do it now--what better excuse :D *laughs* "I'm a monkey, bitch. This is my year."

(Wow I'm rambling. hee!)

Maybe I'm fucked and I live too much in the 'now'. hehehe but, but... I'm also one of the most easily excitable people I know, about anything. I just keep feeding my emotional fire and riding the emotional rollercoaster; its to the point where I don't think I numb myself if I tried. I'll be your enthusiasm coach, rah rah :D I'm certainly enjoying myself from day to day heheh.. I mean, you have the basics, don't you? Food, water, shelter, people who love you... stuff like job may suck but you can slowly work on that.. after all, you see yourself as a writer more than someone for irate people to yell at, no? heheh.. you're already doing what lots of people wish they could. I'm one of those retards who lives the 'stop and smell the roses' bit. It's so cliche, but a warm sweatshirt or sparkly snow is all it takes for me to be excited, lol. But I'm sure there've been times in your life when you had less than you do now. Life is -sooooo- much easier when you put things into perspective with your rose-colored glasses instead of your hindsight binoculars ;D Trust me. I spent years being a massive depress-o nutcase until I reinvented myself. *laughs and shakes her head*

Ohohoh.. *throws confetti* and happy birthday, and I'd bake you a cake if I could heheh.. I love baking cakes.. uhm, but I'll just finish your icon as a late present.. gee golly gosh, I'm so cheap! :D I'm still going to hopefully try to come visit you guys some weekend this month, if my car holds up. So beware. *forces her babbly self to stop typing*