life, the universe, and cow pies......

[judascheese]

Well its time old josh gets it together.
yes.
indeed.

a perfect woman?
yep.
and you lost her?
uhuh.
and.
and what?
and how do you feel my man?
a little sad, lonely, abandoned, all that shit. but also thankful, thankful to have never been treated like shit. thankful to know i can have a healthy adult relationship. thankful for all i learned and grew because of her. and i'll always be thankful to have an angel in my life.
damn.
next question.

hows yer ma?
dick.
no for real man.
she finished her chemotherapy and radiation two months ago and yesterday we went to see the surgeon who was to remove the tumor from her left lung.
we were expecting to schedule the procedure and the fucker tells us "you're in the top of your class, and the pet scan isn't lighting up bright at all, you don't need any operation". needless to say that was good news.
good shit.
i'm happy. elated even.

oh and yer goin to the music shoppe.
yeah i'm finally actually really going to build my studio. i'm gonna get my mcp sampler or a mean synth today.
today.
yeah today.
like today today.
like today right now.
nice.
it is nice. change is nice. change is life. celebrate the impermanence. riiiiiight.