Things I need to say...
I don't know what it is about this time of the year, or maybe it's the circumstances that I've found myself in lately...but I can't handle anything anymore. It seems as if everytime I take care of one problem another, even larger problem comes up and it's really taking a heavy toll on both my mind and body.
For a while I had school to deal with. I don't think my classes were any harder than they've been in years past, however, this is the year I plan on finnishing up. This caused me to worry about my grades a tremendous amount more than I usually would, whoever thought this time would come?
Work has also been the source of much stress. I don't want to blame it on my boss or anything like that because this is the nature of retail at this time of the year. However, it's really not helping my situation much by keeping me at work during times at which I really want to be with the ones I love. I fucking HATE it.
There is also the issue of my solitude. Before I go any further with this confessional, I can't stress enough how grateful I am for all the friends that I have and that nobody has failed me. HOWEVER, I've had this overwhelming feeling of being alone lately. The othernight I was reading someone's journal entry about how they get drunken phone calls at 2 in the morning, and I realized I don't get those, and there's nobody I can call at 2 (not that I would, but still). I'm sure everyone will read this and say that it's bullshit because I can prob. count on a number of people for morning calls...but disregard it, I'll get over it, it's just a passing feeling.
There are more minor things, such as buying christmas presents and bills and applying for new jobs and being the ideal person for everyone...but this has been a healthy dose of explosion.
Anyways, thanks for reading.
For a while I had school to deal with. I don't think my classes were any harder than they've been in years past, however, this is the year I plan on finnishing up. This caused me to worry about my grades a tremendous amount more than I usually would, whoever thought this time would come?
Work has also been the source of much stress. I don't want to blame it on my boss or anything like that because this is the nature of retail at this time of the year. However, it's really not helping my situation much by keeping me at work during times at which I really want to be with the ones I love. I fucking HATE it.
There is also the issue of my solitude. Before I go any further with this confessional, I can't stress enough how grateful I am for all the friends that I have and that nobody has failed me. HOWEVER, I've had this overwhelming feeling of being alone lately. The othernight I was reading someone's journal entry about how they get drunken phone calls at 2 in the morning, and I realized I don't get those, and there's nobody I can call at 2 (not that I would, but still). I'm sure everyone will read this and say that it's bullshit because I can prob. count on a number of people for morning calls...but disregard it, I'll get over it, it's just a passing feeling.
There are more minor things, such as buying christmas presents and bills and applying for new jobs and being the ideal person for everyone...but this has been a healthy dose of explosion.
Anyways, thanks for reading.