it's thursday

[jubeime]

It's thursday. the famous night where many are fake and the tomorrow will bring the famous morning of hangovers. not me. not into that scene, but i watch all the plastics run around here, make some noise and then leave. good for them... anyhow, i had an overall decent day today. This morning wasn't too good. Dreams are supposed to let you "let go." Dreams are supposed to be wonderful and fulfilling and a way to get away from it all, but dreams aren't that for me. Dreams just remind me of the horrible situation that i've led myself to, and now i'm dealing. but it's kinda hard when i can't just get away from it. So after that---class. and by the afternoon i was stressing quite a bit over my precalc. class. this semester i was stuck in the new section of precalc with the foreign teacher whom no one can understand (because he doesn't speak clear english), a teacher whom has a very scary and twisted smile with crooked teeth, and whom is on academic probation: meaning they'd fire him if they had someone to replace him, but they dont' so they keep him. yeah, i had him... and i tried my advisor, i tried the teacher i wanted, and i tried the dept. chair, and none of that worked... so i almost quit: but my roomie said "just try swaping online again" ... so i did once again... and IT WORKED! so i finally got out of that class, that i had been trying to get out of all week, and i got into a decent class, with a girl one floor above me, who is very nice... so i'm very happy about that one today. I also talked to my brother today... david that is... it was nice. short, but nice. i love my brother(s) so... hearing from those who care...that they care... it's nice to hear that once in a while... i realize more and more that it's the little things that mean so much to me... it's the way you don't have to go out of your way to make my day... i like imperfection... i like the corny and the dorky... that's what i need in the end. i need the real deal. the raw, the real... so... i think that's all for now...

i love lamp.

p.s. the weather... ehhh... great.