So...disappointing
This year I was excited for a few things - two to be exact - and both have let me down a little bit and I'm just gonna word vomit a little right now to hopefully get it out of my system.
a) Dance workshop. So I decided I wanted to do dance workshop because I could only fit tap into my schedule but I wanted to dance more - hopefully trying some real dance styles like comtemporary. WELL after placement I got placed in three big group numbers all of which rehearse during the one two hour chunk of time that I CAN'T. I'm trying to find someone to switch shifts with me so I can at least do those but it's still rather disappointing. I can understand - I've lost a lot of my abilities with lack of use and I've never been a contemporary dancer but still. Slightly disappointing.
b) Parade. I have been excited for Parade since I found out we were doing it. I want to Mary Phagan so badly it was ridiculous. I mean I talked about it and talked about it and talked about it and practiced practiced practiced. I knew my competition but I had confidence that my voice has really grown and I look young enough and am very innocent. WELL I lost my voice this weekend and was very upset about it and couldn't sing but went to auditions anyway and tried and got called back and the one person I thought I would have to compete with for sure didn't get called back so I was excited. I felt good about it...still nervous though. But let me explain a little bit more why I'm disappointed. I didn't get Mary Phagan I got Lizzie Phagan. Who the frick is that? (probably the sister) But I really wanted a solo - a singing solo. Last year I got lines/feature, this year I had worked really hard with my singing and I just wanted to be able to show everyone but NO. It's not in the cards. And MUSKET does very few shows that I seem to be able to get good parts in that I was really excited for Parade because I knew very well that Mary Phagan would be a great role for me as opposed to shows like Assassins, Rocky Horror, Monty and Kiss of the Spiderwoman. I'm really hoping this isn't a foreshadowing for the rest of the year to just be a complete letdown (i,.e. auditioning for 42nd Street). I was feeling so good about this year, so confident, so happy. GAH this sucks. I mean it is only fair since I couldn't sing at auditions very well so they had to base it on past experiences and maybe I haven't really grown as much as I'd like to think. But it sucks. I am grateful to be in it at all considering the loss of voice but I just can't help being completely disappointed at the same time.
Sorry, I'm just sick of being mediocre, second choice. Congradulations Laura Irion - star dancer and Mary Phagan :(.
a) Dance workshop. So I decided I wanted to do dance workshop because I could only fit tap into my schedule but I wanted to dance more - hopefully trying some real dance styles like comtemporary. WELL after placement I got placed in three big group numbers all of which rehearse during the one two hour chunk of time that I CAN'T. I'm trying to find someone to switch shifts with me so I can at least do those but it's still rather disappointing. I can understand - I've lost a lot of my abilities with lack of use and I've never been a contemporary dancer but still. Slightly disappointing.
b) Parade. I have been excited for Parade since I found out we were doing it. I want to Mary Phagan so badly it was ridiculous. I mean I talked about it and talked about it and talked about it and practiced practiced practiced. I knew my competition but I had confidence that my voice has really grown and I look young enough and am very innocent. WELL I lost my voice this weekend and was very upset about it and couldn't sing but went to auditions anyway and tried and got called back and the one person I thought I would have to compete with for sure didn't get called back so I was excited. I felt good about it...still nervous though. But let me explain a little bit more why I'm disappointed. I didn't get Mary Phagan I got Lizzie Phagan. Who the frick is that? (probably the sister) But I really wanted a solo - a singing solo. Last year I got lines/feature, this year I had worked really hard with my singing and I just wanted to be able to show everyone but NO. It's not in the cards. And MUSKET does very few shows that I seem to be able to get good parts in that I was really excited for Parade because I knew very well that Mary Phagan would be a great role for me as opposed to shows like Assassins, Rocky Horror, Monty and Kiss of the Spiderwoman. I'm really hoping this isn't a foreshadowing for the rest of the year to just be a complete letdown (i,.e. auditioning for 42nd Street). I was feeling so good about this year, so confident, so happy. GAH this sucks. I mean it is only fair since I couldn't sing at auditions very well so they had to base it on past experiences and maybe I haven't really grown as much as I'd like to think. But it sucks. I am grateful to be in it at all considering the loss of voice but I just can't help being completely disappointed at the same time.
Sorry, I'm just sick of being mediocre, second choice. Congradulations Laura Irion - star dancer and Mary Phagan :(.