I just remembered why...

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...It was that I hated this time of year. More often than not, I end up alone and in solitude. It's a good thing this house is practically devoid of the terror that is alcohol because otherwise, I think I'd be getting myself rather shit-faced right about now. I will be partaking of what little is here though, so it won't be a total waste, but knowing that I am making a ham and other good stuff for others that live here that won't be here tonight (because of work) or significant other's families, that is why I find myself in solitude this night (much like every year).

If anything, it's become quite the reminder of things that happened this year and what I more or less am missing out on life. I am happy for my friends that have completed their circles this year. Damian getting married along with Melissa. Congrats to you guys. Leslie finding a relationship that's not a burden. My sister and Daniel also enjoying their relationships. Bernadette for her recent engagement.

I have to sit and wonder where I missed the boat in life. I know I am more of a person who is about being in solitude, and perhaps that's my bane. I am not a social butterfly in the way of just going out and mingling and I would much rather remain cooped up at home, but I dislike doing it alone...

I portent many bad things coming this year with me getting my own place. Very, very bad things.

Anyway, my friends. I really hope you all have had a wonderful holiday.