Hi Meg! I hope your doing better! I'm really sorry to hear what is going on with you! I really hope things is getting better for you! The cutting part i really hate to hear that! I wish you wasn't! But what i say wont change what you do to your self and feel. My ex did that shit and it hurts me when she did it. No one is worth that pain and scars! Scars is just only thing that will remind of you what cause that pain. I hurt with my self as well. Cause of different reasons. Mostly cause how i feel. I feel alone, rejected .. To many times. All i wanna do is cry. I keep things bottle up in me. Like how i feel when it comes to what i have writen on here few times. Its not just wanna have friends in my life. I feel totaly alone. None of my friends write me (Snail,email,LJ, or even phone me.) Why i am deleting most of my friends off my journal. Feels like no one care. All i do is work and come home. Mostly watching tv. Plus i wish my gf would give me attation at times which i crave for her attation. I feel alone and i attend to keep more to myself. Different times i feel depress, alone, rejected, i dont feel like me any more. Plus my job i like but i dont get paid enough. I like working for Flying J and its harder for me to help with the bills and it gets me down everysingle time i see my pay check. I'm use to almost 600.00 every two weeks and now i'm making 150.00 some every 2 weeks. Tips isn't gardited (how ever you spell it). Plus they made me pomises for different positions and they never give them to me. But dont give up on the world! If he did this to you then he isnt worth it. There is better people out there that will do you no wrong. Please dont hurt your self you have a friend that cares what you do to your self! Friendship has always been a main thing in my life. Just like now how i'm feeling where i feel like none of my friends really care and its hurting me alot. I want friends in my life. But i wont go on any more on that. I'm gonna play some games on here. I'll give you a call some time when i have my next day off and check up on you! Have a good night! ~Jess~
~Jess~
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