Another poem

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Tired

1/26/11

I’m tired of the fact, that because I’m the only kid at home, I’m the scape coat for everything it seems

I’m tired of their excuses, if I can’t make the same when I get home from work why should they be able to?

I’m tired of my opinion not seeming to matter, that I don’t matter

I’m tired of being someone I’m not, I’m me, I can’t change who I am

I’m tired of having to say everything is fine, it’s not

I’m tired of pretending, I don’t want to anymore

I’m tired of life, some days I want to give up

I’m tired of how I’m the butt of jokes, does no one know how much it hurts?

I’m tired of how I need help but no one seems to care

I’m tired of how I do one thing and no one cares, just yell

I’m tired of everything, it hurts to much some days

I’m tired of acting (supposedly) like a baby, I don’t want to

I’m tired of crying, that’s why I’m called a baby

I’m tired of when I suggest something to my nephews/other kids, it gets shot down

I know their parents are around, but they can’t always see everything

I’m tired of offering my help and having someone take it, only to have no one help me

I’m tired of standing up for my beliefs, only to feel like I’m lower than dirt for them

I’m tired of saying I believe in God/Allah, why does things not work out all the time like they say they will

I’m tired of showing them how to do something, only for them to never remember, they aren’t that old

I’m tired of not understanding, I ask questions and no one answers

I’m tired of my emotions, they are getting the best of me

I’m tired of being scared, I need to leave, it would help

I’m tired of school, but a good job is what I want

I’m tired of reading the Bible, it’s getting more and more confusing

I’m tired of working, the guests are the only ones worth going in for

I’m tired of getting in trouble, I try my best, why is it never enough?

I’m tired of being treated like a child, I am an adult, I do know what to do

Even if I don’t act like it

I’m tired for being treated like I’m new at work, by people who have there less than me

I’m tired of letting people walk all over me, I want to stop it

When I do they laugh it off and do it again and again, I gave up. It’ll never end

I’m tired fo asking for something, only to be denied

I’m tired of everything, why is it so hard?

I’m tired of how I seem to live only in my dreams

They’re nice and all but reality is what I need

I’m tired of not seeing my dreams come true

I don’t try hard enough even though I do, is that it?

I’m tired of saying things I find interesting, only to have people ignore me

I’m tired of having to choose between talking or quiet, I can’t be both

I’m tired of lies, I lie to myself everyday

I’m tired of trying to be happy, all I want to do is curl up and ignore everyone

I can’t though, that’s not me so it’ll freak people out (but it is)

I’m tired of waiting for someone, they say to go out and look but I can’t

I’m not that kind of person, no matter what I portray to the world

I’m tired of pretending that life will get better, it might, it might not but right now I’m saying no

I’m tired of thinking people I never met will like me, no one seems to here so why should others?

I’m tired of trying, just so tired

I’m tired of knowing my writing is just an escape, no one seems to care

I’m tired of having all these ideas, I can’t write them down, I lose them

I’m tired of trying to make a difference, it doesn’t seem to work

I’m tired of wanting people to comment, I don’t all the time and I need to because I read a lot

I’m tired, so tired, I can’t stop being tired

I want to give up, I won’t, I can’t, it’s not me but that’s how I feel

I’m tired of this, nothing I do seems to work or help