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I really haven't updated in a while. how odd.
It struck me today as I was reading about a certain person not wanting to go to college, that I really don't want to go to kinhaven. i realized kinhaven was about 1 1/2 months away, yet i didn't feel any tingly excitement. Frankly, I didn't see anything to look forward to. There's nothing fun about knowing that there's a 50% chance of getting Adrienne again, and if i do, every single lesson having to fear what her response will be. I just can't deal with more of those horrible lessons. Because, honestly, I haven't changed that much since last year. Well, it's possible my work ethic has gotten a ton worse (I really can't get to sleep any earlier than 1:30). But I honestly am so impatient when working with new pieces and I just can't learn them as fast as Kinhaven requires. After I learn them i'm really fine, but before then... it's just one of those lessons. But i NEED to get some one week groups in, or get double assigned at least once or twice. I can't just have 3 pieces there, it's just not right. It's not much, and I'm better than that. But as long as I have to fear Adrienne, that's what I'm going to get. And I just don't want to deal with that. But also, so many people aren't going that went and I'll miss them and while I'll make new friends of course, it's just not going to be the same.
My iPod works again. Oh good! And i got my mom's good earphones that work and are easier to get into your ear so i'm happy. Yay! I still need to get Hebrew Themes and Rhapsody in Blue on it though. All 5 versions of rhapsody in blue.
I did one of my science labs, but they've piled up to 4. I'm just gonna do the easy way and cheat. Horrible, I know, but at this point, it doesn't matter really. I'm just sick and tired of being behind. Biochem, which is what we're studying now, is really very interesting, I must say. It also is really easy. I hope AP bio is this easy! lol... I bet not.
And.... Gen is online. and responding. how sweet it is.
It struck me today as I was reading about a certain person not wanting to go to college, that I really don't want to go to kinhaven. i realized kinhaven was about 1 1/2 months away, yet i didn't feel any tingly excitement. Frankly, I didn't see anything to look forward to. There's nothing fun about knowing that there's a 50% chance of getting Adrienne again, and if i do, every single lesson having to fear what her response will be. I just can't deal with more of those horrible lessons. Because, honestly, I haven't changed that much since last year. Well, it's possible my work ethic has gotten a ton worse (I really can't get to sleep any earlier than 1:30). But I honestly am so impatient when working with new pieces and I just can't learn them as fast as Kinhaven requires. After I learn them i'm really fine, but before then... it's just one of those lessons. But i NEED to get some one week groups in, or get double assigned at least once or twice. I can't just have 3 pieces there, it's just not right. It's not much, and I'm better than that. But as long as I have to fear Adrienne, that's what I'm going to get. And I just don't want to deal with that. But also, so many people aren't going that went and I'll miss them and while I'll make new friends of course, it's just not going to be the same.
My iPod works again. Oh good! And i got my mom's good earphones that work and are easier to get into your ear so i'm happy. Yay! I still need to get Hebrew Themes and Rhapsody in Blue on it though. All 5 versions of rhapsody in blue.
I did one of my science labs, but they've piled up to 4. I'm just gonna do the easy way and cheat. Horrible, I know, but at this point, it doesn't matter really. I'm just sick and tired of being behind. Biochem, which is what we're studying now, is really very interesting, I must say. It also is really easy. I hope AP bio is this easy! lol... I bet not.
And.... Gen is online. and responding. how sweet it is.