Entry about boys.
About three years ago, give or take a few months, I took a break from the male gender. I was in a relationship that was moving too fast for me and at the tender age of 15, I didn't quite know how to handle it. So, after it ended I decided to take a break. I wasn't really sure how long it was gonna' last, but I never dreamed 4 years. I'm in my last year right now, so in my sophmore year of college, I'll be back in the male/female continuum.
After being so removed, I don't know how exactly I'm going to handle this. I've been so sheltered and protected. I never had to worry about complicated feelings and relationships before. I've always let guys know up front that I wasn't interested. But now, I guess I'll have to come up with a different excuse if I don't like whoever I'm talking to. Instead of the traditional' "I don't date", I'll have to say something like, "I'm sure you're a great guy, but I don't think that the two of us are compatible", or something like that. Hmm, what is a girl to do?!
Oh, I hate to get off topic, but the other night I went to a party with some friends and I convinced my roomate to be my "lesbian" lover so that I would be safe. It worked out really well for both of us 'cuase this drunk guy wouldn't leave her alone. It was quite funny when she mentioned that she was there with some friends and her girlfriend. It was great!
Anyway, I guess you all are wondering why I've been avoiding males for so long. Well, I've always felt that in order to have a good relationship with someone, you must have a good relationship with yourself. If you're not happy with yourself or if you don't know what you're looking for in life, then there's a good chance that the realationship is gonna' flop. Back in my high school years, I went through a lot of changes and I wasn't really sure what I wanted. I finally got myself together like right at the end of my senior year. I could have ended it then, but I knew that my first year of college would pose a lot of new temptations. Things that I don't want for my life. So, I decided that I should keep it up for one more year just to get acclimated with my new surroundings.
To wrap it up, next year I'll be open to meeting guys in more than just a casual way and that scares the pants off of me. I don't know what to do with them. Oh well, It'll all work out in the end. It always does.
Wishing you much soup and gravy,
JrMints
After being so removed, I don't know how exactly I'm going to handle this. I've been so sheltered and protected. I never had to worry about complicated feelings and relationships before. I've always let guys know up front that I wasn't interested. But now, I guess I'll have to come up with a different excuse if I don't like whoever I'm talking to. Instead of the traditional' "I don't date", I'll have to say something like, "I'm sure you're a great guy, but I don't think that the two of us are compatible", or something like that. Hmm, what is a girl to do?!
Oh, I hate to get off topic, but the other night I went to a party with some friends and I convinced my roomate to be my "lesbian" lover so that I would be safe. It worked out really well for both of us 'cuase this drunk guy wouldn't leave her alone. It was quite funny when she mentioned that she was there with some friends and her girlfriend. It was great!
Anyway, I guess you all are wondering why I've been avoiding males for so long. Well, I've always felt that in order to have a good relationship with someone, you must have a good relationship with yourself. If you're not happy with yourself or if you don't know what you're looking for in life, then there's a good chance that the realationship is gonna' flop. Back in my high school years, I went through a lot of changes and I wasn't really sure what I wanted. I finally got myself together like right at the end of my senior year. I could have ended it then, but I knew that my first year of college would pose a lot of new temptations. Things that I don't want for my life. So, I decided that I should keep it up for one more year just to get acclimated with my new surroundings.
To wrap it up, next year I'll be open to meeting guys in more than just a casual way and that scares the pants off of me. I don't know what to do with them. Oh well, It'll all work out in the end. It always does.
Wishing you much soup and gravy,
JrMints