Heyy...
OK, seriously... I fucked up. I did, and I know it, which of coarse makes it 100x worse... here is the scoop.
Lindsay, remember I REALLY like her, k? But I'm REALLY scared to ask her out or take a kiss or anything. I get feelings and basically know that she likes me, but I'm just scared. Yesterday, Saturday, I went to her dorm. We were standing in the hall in front of the outer doors because I was about to go home, and it was cold. I looked at the door and nodded (as a joke) for her to open the door and she said "What do you want?" Me, I took this as an opening for a joke thing and said "What are we talking about?" and she took me up on it and said, "Just ask, and you'll get it." So now I'm like "Hey, what I want, I'm not supposed to ask for." She kept telling me to "Ask for it" and I'd get a "Yes." So, I normally would just be able to say "Hey, you know I want you" Because I'm normally, ok wait, NEVER scared! But I'm nervous, I don't want to screw anything up.
So, I say that I'll tell her what I want if she'll explain to me what she is going to say when she is in Cali. So she says she'll tell me why she doesn't want to say anything until I tell her what I want. She tells me she is afraid to tell people how she really feels And she asks me "Have you ever seen 'How to Deal'?" I say 'No' and then she starts to explain to me this part where Mandy's character is talking to her love interest (something with a "M") and says something like 'I like you too much to go out with you' or something, and I cut her off and ask what she mean't by that, she tells me its not how it sounds and that I'd just have to watch the movie to understand. She also tells me that she is skittish about getting hurt.
I ask her if she thinks I'll hurt her and she says no but tells me that she is still worried because it has happened before. So I ask her how we could get through this, and she said "Prove to me you won't hurt me" so I say, "I guess that will take a little time" she said "Yes" so I said, "Well if it helps any, I want to spend that time with you" She just smiled and said "Yes it does."
Now remember after she first brought up the movie part, I got SCARED. Like seriously. I was shaking badly. My eyes hurt. Everything just felt like it was falling apart. See I LIKE her and I thought I wasn't going to get my chance.
But anyways, I'm still a wee-bit SCARED. And yet she still wants me to "Ask for what I want" but I can't now because of the "Like you too much, friend" thing. I was SCARED! So I just say, "Maybe I should just ask for my hug."
WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING???? So after the (Well it was one of the best damn hugs I ever received) "HUG" (GOD I AM AN IDIOT) I start heading home and then start to see how everything should have gone, and I start to think of "Pirates of the Caribbean" where Capt. Jack Sparrow says to Will Turner, "If you were looking for the opportune moment, that was it" I was just too scared. She called me on my way home so I call her back when I got there and I explained to her how big of an IDIOT I was, and I should have handled it ALL different. She says I'm not, but I know the truth.
Well, I went out and rented "How to Deal" and now I understand what she mean't by the part! I see what she was trying to say and GOD I WAS AN IDIOT. But I know more now then I did before, so I should be able to at least walk with crutches instead of a wheel chair... I hope, I really like her. I miss her, she is in Cali now. At least she is happy.
Anyways folks, I know that no one reads these so I'll just say...
"Gentlemen, and my Lady, remember, today is the day that you almost caught... Capt. Jack Sparrow!"
or just Peace
J.R. Dubya
Lindsay, remember I REALLY like her, k? But I'm REALLY scared to ask her out or take a kiss or anything. I get feelings and basically know that she likes me, but I'm just scared. Yesterday, Saturday, I went to her dorm. We were standing in the hall in front of the outer doors because I was about to go home, and it was cold. I looked at the door and nodded (as a joke) for her to open the door and she said "What do you want?" Me, I took this as an opening for a joke thing and said "What are we talking about?" and she took me up on it and said, "Just ask, and you'll get it." So now I'm like "Hey, what I want, I'm not supposed to ask for." She kept telling me to "Ask for it" and I'd get a "Yes." So, I normally would just be able to say "Hey, you know I want you" Because I'm normally, ok wait, NEVER scared! But I'm nervous, I don't want to screw anything up.
So, I say that I'll tell her what I want if she'll explain to me what she is going to say when she is in Cali. So she says she'll tell me why she doesn't want to say anything until I tell her what I want. She tells me she is afraid to tell people how she really feels And she asks me "Have you ever seen 'How to Deal'?" I say 'No' and then she starts to explain to me this part where Mandy's character is talking to her love interest (something with a "M") and says something like 'I like you too much to go out with you' or something, and I cut her off and ask what she mean't by that, she tells me its not how it sounds and that I'd just have to watch the movie to understand. She also tells me that she is skittish about getting hurt.
I ask her if she thinks I'll hurt her and she says no but tells me that she is still worried because it has happened before. So I ask her how we could get through this, and she said "Prove to me you won't hurt me" so I say, "I guess that will take a little time" she said "Yes" so I said, "Well if it helps any, I want to spend that time with you" She just smiled and said "Yes it does."
Now remember after she first brought up the movie part, I got SCARED. Like seriously. I was shaking badly. My eyes hurt. Everything just felt like it was falling apart. See I LIKE her and I thought I wasn't going to get my chance.
But anyways, I'm still a wee-bit SCARED. And yet she still wants me to "Ask for what I want" but I can't now because of the "Like you too much, friend" thing. I was SCARED! So I just say, "Maybe I should just ask for my hug."
WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING???? So after the (Well it was one of the best damn hugs I ever received) "HUG" (GOD I AM AN IDIOT) I start heading home and then start to see how everything should have gone, and I start to think of "Pirates of the Caribbean" where Capt. Jack Sparrow says to Will Turner, "If you were looking for the opportune moment, that was it" I was just too scared. She called me on my way home so I call her back when I got there and I explained to her how big of an IDIOT I was, and I should have handled it ALL different. She says I'm not, but I know the truth.
Well, I went out and rented "How to Deal" and now I understand what she mean't by the part! I see what she was trying to say and GOD I WAS AN IDIOT. But I know more now then I did before, so I should be able to at least walk with crutches instead of a wheel chair... I hope, I really like her. I miss her, she is in Cali now. At least she is happy.
Anyways folks, I know that no one reads these so I'll just say...
"Gentlemen, and my Lady, remember, today is the day that you almost caught... Capt. Jack Sparrow!"
or just Peace
J.R. Dubya