hello from a cold Grand rapids
work : the decision last time was either say FUCK IT or CHANGE. a week after the 1st time my boss had a talk with me, she had another. I started in the FUCK IT phase 1= vaguely telling my boss they need to get to know me, she's handicapping them by not making them talk to me, and this isn't the job I want in the next 5 yrs. after the weekend I talked with her again- changed plans: CHANGE phase 1 = accepting that there is an issue. I intimidate the new RNs- which I think came from me oersonally not wanting them there- tired of constant change and constantly teaching new RNs and dealing with new RN issues/mistakes. Phase 1 is complete, changed a little. Manager wants me to take leadership classes across the street- next week we'll meet. At 1st I wanted nothing to do with this- now I realize the classes are during the daytime- so at least one of my days will be on normal hours- Change Phase 3 soon. Night shift is getting old fast. Love the people- hate switching over and feeling nauseous.
love: jon applied to three nurse anesthestist schools: Virginia Commonwealth, Charleston Area Medical Center (WV), and Northeaster (boston). He flew to VA last week and had an interview- he didn't get in :( it was our first pick. so now waiting on two others. we're getting along better. just issues with preparing to buckle down financially for the wedding and for him to go to school next year.
hair; my hair looks like shit. Can't wait to get a trim and reshaped this week. rehighlighting top, low lights to the bottom, so I don't look freakishly blonde on the bottom. would love to cut it to shoulder length and darken it. the day after we get married I'm cutting it short! can't wait! now it's the middle of my back.
wedding plans: the hall, photographer, caterer, dress, colors all picked out. waiting to meet up with Stacey (sister) to get bridesmaid dress (she's the only one standing up with me). waiting on Jon to come to church with me for once to feel out if we want to have Pastor Will conduct the ceremony or coworkers husband who is a lay pastor. I honestly cannot decide.
church; found a church I love. relaxed I wear jeans with nice sweater. honest down to earth pastor and people. not too contemporary not traditional. I really needed this in my life and glad God gave it to me. I'm so liberal and hate most churches for their hypocracy that I visited at least 10 churches in the GR area before finding this one.
friends: miss everyone love everyone hope we'll be able to meet up sometime this month.