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So I'm an idiot, and I'm afraid to go even try going to sleep after watching Paranormal Activity. I think it's the idea of a supernatural force that comes to hurt you when you're deepest asleep at 4 in the morning. Even if I'm smart enough not to try to film myself every night, or ignore the advice of a psychic. I think I'm more afraid of the fear that comes when I remember the scariest moments of the movie as I try to sleep, than anything else.
I'm reminded of a Sesame Street storybook I had once, in which Ernie and Bert return from a scary movie, called Ghosties. Ernie gets all paranoid, remembering different comically spooky scenes from the movie and generally freaking out Bert. I forget how everything gets resolved in the end, though. I'm probably going to just stay up until dawn and then sleep for a while.
I've never pulled an all-nighter before, alone. I guess it's kind of cool to get to some things I've been putting off. Like posting here.
It's been a good long while since I've posted. I'm not really sure where to begin. These days I'm plugging long with work and doing plenty of fun things outside of work. I do feel pretty tired at the end of every day, and I really miss when I had the energy and time to study Japanese and practice guitar almost every day. Sometimes I wonder if I should make more serious effort to stop playing video games and reading stupid articles on the internet in favor of accomplishing real things. But at the same time, I'm so exhausted after work that I don't really want to do anything else.
I guess I'm still struggling with a low-grade anxiety that I think comes from a lack of confidence and a fear of not being self-aware. If I can just have more confidence that everything is totally awesome, and believe that without needing any other person to tell me so, then I'll be fine.
Besides whining about my anxieties, I guess I used to use this thing to report on various books, movies, and video games. I tried to switch to using a Facebook app called Living Social for a while, but I've gotten kind of bored with that.
Just finished The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao, by Junot Diaz (literally, since it's due back tomorrow and I'm afraid to try to sleep). It started off interestingly enough, but the ending was a huge disappointment. I did enjoy the many nerd cultural references, like metaphors relating Trujillo, a dictator in the Dominican Republic, to Sauron.
I'm currently obsessed with playing Brütal Legend, an action-adventure-pseudo-realtime-strategy game from Tim Schafer. Critics have complained that the realtime strategy elements are lacking, but I think the game is really fun, and the world is exciting. You play a roadie who is transported to a crazy world out of a Heavy Metal album. It's fun just to roam around the world doing the usual collection junk, because everything is so gorgeous and you can listen to a pretty fun soundtrack.
Also currently playing No More Heroes, which is a huge disappointment. I was warned that while the boss battles are sweet, the rest of the game is boring. This is true, but actually the boss battles aren't that sweet. I'll finish it 'cause I should only have 2 bosses left, but I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. Maybe watch the cutscenes on youtube or something. Or just play Killer7, the game that got the studio so much attention.
What else...Siena was here for her fall break, and we had a ton of fun. I traded my usual time killing for cooking dinner and snuggling. We saw Where the Wild Things Are, which I like a lot, even if it was really melancholy. I think it was a good choice to have all the Wild Things embody different elements of a nine year old's insecurities. It was also a good choice to have them done as giant suits by Jim Henson's Creature Shop.
So yeah, I think this is long enough. I feel like an idiot for being afraid to sleep. This hasn't happened to me since I watched the first 5 episodes of Higurashi, and slept with the light on that night. Don't laugh at me.
I'm reminded of a Sesame Street storybook I had once, in which Ernie and Bert return from a scary movie, called Ghosties. Ernie gets all paranoid, remembering different comically spooky scenes from the movie and generally freaking out Bert. I forget how everything gets resolved in the end, though. I'm probably going to just stay up until dawn and then sleep for a while.
I've never pulled an all-nighter before, alone. I guess it's kind of cool to get to some things I've been putting off. Like posting here.
It's been a good long while since I've posted. I'm not really sure where to begin. These days I'm plugging long with work and doing plenty of fun things outside of work. I do feel pretty tired at the end of every day, and I really miss when I had the energy and time to study Japanese and practice guitar almost every day. Sometimes I wonder if I should make more serious effort to stop playing video games and reading stupid articles on the internet in favor of accomplishing real things. But at the same time, I'm so exhausted after work that I don't really want to do anything else.
I guess I'm still struggling with a low-grade anxiety that I think comes from a lack of confidence and a fear of not being self-aware. If I can just have more confidence that everything is totally awesome, and believe that without needing any other person to tell me so, then I'll be fine.
Besides whining about my anxieties, I guess I used to use this thing to report on various books, movies, and video games. I tried to switch to using a Facebook app called Living Social for a while, but I've gotten kind of bored with that.
Just finished The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao, by Junot Diaz (literally, since it's due back tomorrow and I'm afraid to try to sleep). It started off interestingly enough, but the ending was a huge disappointment. I did enjoy the many nerd cultural references, like metaphors relating Trujillo, a dictator in the Dominican Republic, to Sauron.
I'm currently obsessed with playing Brütal Legend, an action-adventure-pseudo-realtime-strategy game from Tim Schafer. Critics have complained that the realtime strategy elements are lacking, but I think the game is really fun, and the world is exciting. You play a roadie who is transported to a crazy world out of a Heavy Metal album. It's fun just to roam around the world doing the usual collection junk, because everything is so gorgeous and you can listen to a pretty fun soundtrack.
Also currently playing No More Heroes, which is a huge disappointment. I was warned that while the boss battles are sweet, the rest of the game is boring. This is true, but actually the boss battles aren't that sweet. I'll finish it 'cause I should only have 2 bosses left, but I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. Maybe watch the cutscenes on youtube or something. Or just play Killer7, the game that got the studio so much attention.
What else...Siena was here for her fall break, and we had a ton of fun. I traded my usual time killing for cooking dinner and snuggling. We saw Where the Wild Things Are, which I like a lot, even if it was really melancholy. I think it was a good choice to have all the Wild Things embody different elements of a nine year old's insecurities. It was also a good choice to have them done as giant suits by Jim Henson's Creature Shop.
So yeah, I think this is long enough. I feel like an idiot for being afraid to sleep. This hasn't happened to me since I watched the first 5 episodes of Higurashi, and slept with the light on that night. Don't laugh at me.