dating and cemetary ettiquite
Some of you may now that my normal way of locating a girlfriend is develop a huge crush on a girl and then wait until some night when she might get drunk enough to try making out with me. Usually they are really sweet psychotic girls with designer set of baggage that I carry until they sleep with one of my friends. Or they are girls I have brief intense relationships often drifting through my life every so often. Since most of these have gotten shorter as I have gotten older after the accident I decided to find out if I could be happy alone first before I started seeing anyone again plus I have been pretty miserable the past few years waiting for pain to subside. Well I have decided it might be nice to at least socialize with other human beings and meet new people and to this end I just returned on my first real date in a long time. Meeting people I don't know is still certainly not my strong point because in the past by the time I went out with someone I knew them for some time having stalked them obsessively before often even talking to them. Well OK those charges where dismissed but I least usually would have been smitten with someone for sometime before I asked them out.
I still seem to be more often than not a complete moron when first meeting a girl and due to nerves talk way too much about myself usually about what some might consider embarrassing things. At least until I have drunk enough to squint one eye and start talking like a pirate.
Quite honestly I have come to enjoy being on my own. More often then not my life becomes dominated by my relationships. Not that bothers me except for not spending enough time with my friends but I figured maybe if I could figure somethings out on my own I met get better at the LTR thing.
I suppose had I bothered to put the effort in I wouldn't be writing this until tomorrow morning but honestly I just wanted to feel that new feeling again. Maybe had I felt that charge I might have put more of the oh so smooth jason charm on but I couldn't tell if I felt anything. She was quite nice and attractive not in the way my previous girlfriends have been. Maybe a she was a little more granola than I am normally attracted to. But that can be said for any girl that doesn't squeeze into a latex SM outfit every friday night I guess. We shared alot of the same political and personal beliefs butI noticed she didn't drink much of the wine I brought for our walk in the graveyard (her choice not mine thank you very much)
Being as I never have any idea if any girl likes me I can not say at this point if it will ever get past tonight. It certainly was a pleasant evening of conversation.
I asked a different girl out this Saturday who I think is a bit younger maybe. It seems I have more in common with people younger than myself at least that is what I tell myself.
In any case it is nice to just to be social and meet new people again.
Still in Victoria enjoying hanging out with my mom. been walking everyday and deliberately left my cane in Seattle. Even managed a two hour hike the other day. Went for a walk on the beach today and came across a molting seal. He looked so serene almost like he was grinning from having a great dream or something.
I still seem to be more often than not a complete moron when first meeting a girl and due to nerves talk way too much about myself usually about what some might consider embarrassing things. At least until I have drunk enough to squint one eye and start talking like a pirate.
Quite honestly I have come to enjoy being on my own. More often then not my life becomes dominated by my relationships. Not that bothers me except for not spending enough time with my friends but I figured maybe if I could figure somethings out on my own I met get better at the LTR thing.
I suppose had I bothered to put the effort in I wouldn't be writing this until tomorrow morning but honestly I just wanted to feel that new feeling again. Maybe had I felt that charge I might have put more of the oh so smooth jason charm on but I couldn't tell if I felt anything. She was quite nice and attractive not in the way my previous girlfriends have been. Maybe a she was a little more granola than I am normally attracted to. But that can be said for any girl that doesn't squeeze into a latex SM outfit every friday night I guess. We shared alot of the same political and personal beliefs butI noticed she didn't drink much of the wine I brought for our walk in the graveyard (her choice not mine thank you very much)
Being as I never have any idea if any girl likes me I can not say at this point if it will ever get past tonight. It certainly was a pleasant evening of conversation.
I asked a different girl out this Saturday who I think is a bit younger maybe. It seems I have more in common with people younger than myself at least that is what I tell myself.
In any case it is nice to just to be social and meet new people again.
Still in Victoria enjoying hanging out with my mom. been walking everyday and deliberately left my cane in Seattle. Even managed a two hour hike the other day. Went for a walk on the beach today and came across a molting seal. He looked so serene almost like he was grinning from having a great dream or something.