Sometimes...
sometimes i come across as an asshole.
i don't usually wonder why. *shrugs*
i don't hate fat people...
i think that 'some' people can't help it..so I will agree with josherman
but...you know. most people can. Ah..whatever, i don't care.
it's just one of those things.
i'm not really a nazi.
i've been pretty sick lately.
i've got blood in the lungs.
for the past week i've been hiding out.
i accidentally stood up my friend gerald and i didn't mean to.
i hate being sick.
i puked for like...a straight hour at 6:00 a.m. this morning (technically yesterday now).
*sigh*...
i feel poopey and weird.
i have to go see a specialist in about...4 months are so, and that's in toronto and i'm mass scared.
the doctor i went to, who was just a walk-in clinic doctor, said that i have blood in my esophagus from coughing,
and when he swabbed my throat, he said there was man-made materials in it.
like, wtf does that mean?
so, right now i've got tons to think about.
i haven't gone shopping yet.
i don't want any one to go shopping for me.
things seem to get funny often.
haha.
more so as of recent, but...in all honesty, there are a few aspects of my life that are turning out really, really great.
emotionally, i'm always well.
i'm never in a truly bad place.
but physically...well, my body speaks for itself. :(
heh.
i talked to jacob tonight. it had been a while since we talked.
i always feel good after talking to him.
he's a really good person, and he really should be proud of himself.
he's grown up into the type of person that everyone should want their kids to grow up like.
i appreciate him.
i haven't talked to bree in a little while, because i've been sick.
i really miss her when i don't get to see her...
but i can be honest when i say that i've turned into a real hermit.
she's really happy in life, and has a really great boyfriend, and...
we don't have too much in common any more these days.
she likes hanging out with people and having fun,
and i like being by myself and making art work...i love my private time.
aside from the bits and pieces i say in lj, i really, REALLY have a private life.
it's strange.
anyway,
plus, we've both been sick (bree and i)...
i miss her and am going to call her tomorrow.
(bree, if you're reading this:
i love you tons, and i miss you...
and i'm sorry that i didn't go with gerald. i slept all day until like...8, and my dad didn't even know i was home to wake me up (he never thinks i'm home when i'm sleeping), and when i got up...it was too late, so i went to my grandma's, etc...
i'll call you tomorrow. ♥)
but anyway...
i went to shopper's drug mart today, and i bought new soap. exciting eh?
and i've just smeared vitamin e all over my face (vitamin e is an oil, and i really hope it doens't make me break out...yes, i may have a thing or two to say about fat people, but i break out...and that's faaar worse, because there isn't much you can do), i'll be lucky if it doesn't stick to and stain my pillow.
i'm a lame wad//
i need to do various things tomorrow:
- haul my ass out of bed before 10:30 a.m. and not feel like shit
- take my supplements
- cardio for an hour and a half.
- eat a can of tuna, drink some milk.
- make a salad and save it for noon.
- call josh.
- take a shower, and wash my hair...really wash my hair, because...i can't remember the last time i did that was.
- call avery at noon.
- call bree around 2.
- get canvases, charcoal.
- pick up my paint brushes at some point.
- go to my grandma's for dinner.
i don't know what else is on the agenda for the day,
but i know what's on the agenda for the evening.
so yes.
ugh.
i've got nothing else.
i don't usually wonder why. *shrugs*
i don't hate fat people...
i think that 'some' people can't help it..so I will agree with josherman
but...you know. most people can. Ah..whatever, i don't care.
it's just one of those things.
i'm not really a nazi.
i've been pretty sick lately.
i've got blood in the lungs.
for the past week i've been hiding out.
i accidentally stood up my friend gerald and i didn't mean to.
i hate being sick.
i puked for like...a straight hour at 6:00 a.m. this morning (technically yesterday now).
*sigh*...
i feel poopey and weird.
i have to go see a specialist in about...4 months are so, and that's in toronto and i'm mass scared.
the doctor i went to, who was just a walk-in clinic doctor, said that i have blood in my esophagus from coughing,
and when he swabbed my throat, he said there was man-made materials in it.
like, wtf does that mean?
so, right now i've got tons to think about.
i haven't gone shopping yet.
i don't want any one to go shopping for me.
things seem to get funny often.
haha.
more so as of recent, but...in all honesty, there are a few aspects of my life that are turning out really, really great.
emotionally, i'm always well.
i'm never in a truly bad place.
but physically...well, my body speaks for itself. :(
heh.
i talked to jacob tonight. it had been a while since we talked.
i always feel good after talking to him.
he's a really good person, and he really should be proud of himself.
he's grown up into the type of person that everyone should want their kids to grow up like.
i appreciate him.
i haven't talked to bree in a little while, because i've been sick.
i really miss her when i don't get to see her...
but i can be honest when i say that i've turned into a real hermit.
she's really happy in life, and has a really great boyfriend, and...
we don't have too much in common any more these days.
she likes hanging out with people and having fun,
and i like being by myself and making art work...i love my private time.
aside from the bits and pieces i say in lj, i really, REALLY have a private life.
it's strange.
anyway,
plus, we've both been sick (bree and i)...
i miss her and am going to call her tomorrow.
(bree, if you're reading this:
i love you tons, and i miss you...
and i'm sorry that i didn't go with gerald. i slept all day until like...8, and my dad didn't even know i was home to wake me up (he never thinks i'm home when i'm sleeping), and when i got up...it was too late, so i went to my grandma's, etc...
i'll call you tomorrow. ♥)
but anyway...
i went to shopper's drug mart today, and i bought new soap. exciting eh?
and i've just smeared vitamin e all over my face (vitamin e is an oil, and i really hope it doens't make me break out...yes, i may have a thing or two to say about fat people, but i break out...and that's faaar worse, because there isn't much you can do), i'll be lucky if it doesn't stick to and stain my pillow.
i'm a lame wad//
i need to do various things tomorrow:
- haul my ass out of bed before 10:30 a.m. and not feel like shit
- take my supplements
- cardio for an hour and a half.
- eat a can of tuna, drink some milk.
- make a salad and save it for noon.
- call josh.
- take a shower, and wash my hair...really wash my hair, because...i can't remember the last time i did that was.
- call avery at noon.
- call bree around 2.
- get canvases, charcoal.
- pick up my paint brushes at some point.
- go to my grandma's for dinner.
i don't know what else is on the agenda for the day,
but i know what's on the agenda for the evening.
so yes.
ugh.
i've got nothing else.