i just found out that blake's wedding is this saturday and i never received an invitation. i'm really hurt.

1. last night i spent multiple hours in my bathroom with thirdplanet and Dave partaking in the glories of THC and Monopoly. Oh, it was sweet. But the condition of my "potty room" this morning was not. Enid had her way with the "stash" and monopoly money.
   
2. I am going to "employ" the cutest ryan ever at Fannie May. sweet.
   
3. I am Anna Nicole. "can't someone just ( Read more... )

blake and i smoked a joint last night. i hadn't smoked for about 3 weeks, and was surprised at how stoned i got. everything was really hilarious. just thought about that. what fun. nikki is making me stop now. she smells like cheese...really bad.

I know some of you have been wondering exactly who this boy is, so here is Blake's fancy new LiveJournal!

Today's Epiphany: Blake is such an ass. Yeah, I know this is nothing new. But, it never irritated me before. Now that he has fucked one of my best friends, I really get annoyed by the things I used to find endearing. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I ignored it before, just because I was attracted to him. And now that I'm really not, ( Read more... )

• last night was my first alone, in quite a long time. made it hard to sleep.
  
• got naked and walked around my house for a while
  
• read some Maxim
  
• tested out the cute new vibe i bought, it's fabulous.
  
• fell asleep around 3am
  
• Fannie May was super busy today. I beat my sales plan into the ground. Take that! I'd better get mly 4th quarter sales bonus!
  
• ( Read more... )

thinking about god. what lessons am i learning from being alone?

thinking about blake. if just for one moment you felt the same way, that would probably make me glow for eons. and i mean what i say.

thinking about amber. you deserve to be happy. sorry for putting a damper on your summer with my envy.

thinking about nikki. sorry, i wasn't ( Read more... )

• why is this killing me? maybe i really don't deserve it. maybe i really don't want it. no, i'm pretty sure i want it. i just think someone wants it more.
  
• yep. still blows.
  
• really wish i was going to St. Louis this weekend. Nikki! Ugh, you know why we planned this trip, and I need it more than ever right now. I'm going to implode. please ( Read more... )

slammed the register shut and literally ran down to the library.

last night was weird. weird looks. weird touches. made me feel uneasy. so i slept.

god, i want you all so bad it makes me sick.

meow.