How To Save A Life (Update on my mama and me)
My mom has been in the hospital for almost a week now. She has an infection SOMEWHERE in her body that she's not able to fight off. Her immune response is at zero. Her platelets aren't being produced and it seems her body isn't accepting the ones that they put in. She has been overly tired and running a high fever which the seemed to have under control with 1000 mg of tylenol every 4 hours. She sometimes seems like a shell of herself laying there in her bed. It feels like I'm losing my best friend.
How am I doing you might ask? If you aren't I'll tell you anyway. I'm as okay as I can be considering. I have been living out of a suitecase for 3 weeks... I just got back from vacation the day before she had to be rushed to Grand Forks. So that has really sucked, and all around I'm exhausted... I stayed up too late while down south and I haven't been able to sleep well in the motel no matter how hard I try to ignore my dad's snoring he seems to get louder than my earplugs lol...
I think I'm growing numb to the thought of my mom being so sick. It seems the chemo just made her condition worse. Also, I'm kind of jealous of my sibblings. Not only can they seem to be really detached in their caring, but they have families... my parents ARE my family and to lose a part of that family would kill me. They're 40 somethings it's expected for them to be burying they're parents... I'm only a 20 something... I'm not supposed to worry about that for another 20 years or so... Oh well a pipe dream at best. It makes me sad to think that my mother and father will probably not see my children.
How am I doing you might ask? If you aren't I'll tell you anyway. I'm as okay as I can be considering. I have been living out of a suitecase for 3 weeks... I just got back from vacation the day before she had to be rushed to Grand Forks. So that has really sucked, and all around I'm exhausted... I stayed up too late while down south and I haven't been able to sleep well in the motel no matter how hard I try to ignore my dad's snoring he seems to get louder than my earplugs lol...
I think I'm growing numb to the thought of my mom being so sick. It seems the chemo just made her condition worse. Also, I'm kind of jealous of my sibblings. Not only can they seem to be really detached in their caring, but they have families... my parents ARE my family and to lose a part of that family would kill me. They're 40 somethings it's expected for them to be burying they're parents... I'm only a 20 something... I'm not supposed to worry about that for another 20 years or so... Oh well a pipe dream at best. It makes me sad to think that my mother and father will probably not see my children.