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So, I guess I am getting better at this break up stuff! I have a date Tomorrow and I am very excited about it. This break up was minor, but it really helped me move past the one with Simon! I am excited about that too. Simon and I have been really good at being friends again lately and I even made up with Christal. I realized that what I wanted was selfish. I wanted SImon to be in love with me forever even if I didn't love him. My pride was hurt. Then I tried to compete with him by rushing into a relationship with Matt. It wasn't healthy, or good for me. Now, I have spent so much time with my friends and reconnected with them and just been HAPPY. It is SO nice to be happy again! I had forgotten what it felt like. It also feels good to be good with Simon anf Christal. I like not having anger. Man, if only being single had felt this good the first time around.
Another good thing I learned: when Matt dumped me, first thing I did was delete his number. Yay for learning from my past. If only I had been strong enough to do that with all those early boys, maybe I would still seem sane to them (even though, I really wasn't). It feels good not to be the crazy girl anymore.
So here is to the NEW single Joy. THe one that isn't going crazy and drinking everynight or sleeping around. The one that instead of hurting her friends is bonding with them. Go me!
Another good thing I learned: when Matt dumped me, first thing I did was delete his number. Yay for learning from my past. If only I had been strong enough to do that with all those early boys, maybe I would still seem sane to them (even though, I really wasn't). It feels good not to be the crazy girl anymore.
So here is to the NEW single Joy. THe one that isn't going crazy and drinking everynight or sleeping around. The one that instead of hurting her friends is bonding with them. Go me!