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Do I really like Matt or am I afraid to be alone? I mean, I love his guitar playing, I think he is really cute and he is pretty easy to talk to and can be a lot of fun...but, he drives me crazy sometimes. First off, my sex drive is way higher. I feel like I am going to explode. It reminds me of my relationship with Simon and makes me feel unwanted sometimes. Then, he is not so great about the calling when he says he will thing. I don't care if you don't call, but, if you say you are going to, then do it. That is my thing. I am afraid to tell him how I feel because I am afraid it will lead to a break up, but if I am not comfortable talking to him, it's not a good relationship anyway. ARGH! I don't know WHAT makes a good relationship, I have only ever had one. I also fear I started this relationship thing to compete with Simon and Christal. I don't believe that anymore, really, because I really have no feelings anymore, I discovered that when playing MASH (is that sad). I think I just want more. I am not looking for anything too serious, I am only 22, not looking for marriage or anything, but, I do want someone who cares about me for NOW. I guess I should talk to him and what happens, happens.