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[joy2thefishes]

SO, I have been working 6 days a week and it is starting to drive me a little crazy. I'm a little sleep deprived. I can't get motivated to study even though I have 2 midterms this week...I need to, I have tomorrow night off and wednesday morning off so I can study then, I doubt it will be enough. Oh well. I get to wait on Kayne from projected runway's season finale party!! w00t! He is pretty nice, and his life partner/husband/whatever thinks I have amazing hip bones. DO you think his boyfriend would make me something for them? hee hee. Anyway, nothing else is really going on. I am still dating Matt, I am trying to keep it from getting serious, I don't want serious. I want fun! I think he does too. Which is really good. Simon and I moved way too fast, granted we were in high school. He and I said I Love You by now. If Matt said those words to me right now, I would run away screaming. I think that is a good thing ;). Maybe I am growing up. Simon and I are working on being friends, so far so good. I still don't really like Christal, but I will work on it. I just looked for faults in her when I was angry and they are hard to get over. I just feel she is a weak girl. She cried a lot at parties and in front of people, which is not my style. I don't like crying in front of big groups, it seems manipulative. Like you are trying to get sympathy. When something big has happened I understand, but when all I say is, "I wouldn't have come had I known Simon and Christal would be here." and you ball, it's too much. I also don't like how every party I go to she is, "sooo wasted" after 2 beers. 2 LITs, I get it, two beers? As much as I see her drink, and I am sure she drinks when I am not around, her tollerance should be higher. Whatever. Plus, she is the new girlfriend, I am the ex, we are not supposed to get along. It's female nature.

I guess I just kind of needed to write those things down and get them out. Kind of a cleansing.