bliss
Today started out VERY normally. Drank the wrong thing last night (and a great deal of it) so I woke up with a very unpleasant hangover. Ran a couple of errands, came home and fucked around, bored and rather depressed. What's new eh?
At 3:15 I got a call. The interview I went to on Tuesday had their decision; they want me to start on Monday! That was when I decided to go to dinner with the group, and have a great time. So I impatiently waited, because I had heard DB was going to be there, and I had the suspicion that Z might be, also. FINALLY got there, and things were luke warm for the first half, because DB was showing a helluva lot more interest in Renee than in (well anyone). Then Joe showed up with Z. For a while I was back in crush land. Desperately trying to not show how thrilled I was to see him for the first time in 5 months or so, trying to make sure I didn't look at him too often or stare or *blah blah blah stupid childish girl crap* ... DB got VERY drunk and when Renee said she wasn't going go join us at R&R's house, I offered him a ride. That's when he told me that he gets very hands-y when he drinks, and that if I had a problem with that I needed to "kick him in the shins early on" lol. Who am I to turn down cuddling at R&R's place? So I said I didn't mind. I didn't really anticipate quite HOW hands-y he was going to get back there. We all settled in and started watching Batman Begins, H fell asleep fast, CW left pretty early on. DB and I were on the lounge and he was being frisky under the camouflage of a blanket. Subtle, eh? haha I doubt anyone missed what he was trying for, and I'm sorry but I am not all that thrilled with the thought of an audience.
Once Joe and Z got there, I decided enough was enough (That and I got a finger in the eyeball which sent me to the bathroom to wash my makeup out of it and clean up) and I was going to take a lesson from DB and stop being stupid and subtle. So I went and stole Z's seat when he got up, and when he came back I made him sit with me. We ended up having a VERY nice cuddle for a little bit, which is just one of my favorite damn things in the world. While I still wish we could have a lot more than we do, and I still feel a great deal for him, I am pleased to say I am over my stupid giddy-school-girl crush!!! I'm so pleased. Though the adrenaline rush of just Looking at a crush or brushing up against them will be missed. What's left is a familiar, comfortable fondness, and a bit of frustration. At some point in the not-too-distant-future I would like to see if anything happens with a SOBER DB, as he's also very good at cuddling, and from what I tasted tonight seems like he could be rather good at other things as well! hehe
So that was my day. I think the only thing that could have made it better would have been... well, a bit more! ;)
At 3:15 I got a call. The interview I went to on Tuesday had their decision; they want me to start on Monday! That was when I decided to go to dinner with the group, and have a great time. So I impatiently waited, because I had heard DB was going to be there, and I had the suspicion that Z might be, also. FINALLY got there, and things were luke warm for the first half, because DB was showing a helluva lot more interest in Renee than in (well anyone). Then Joe showed up with Z. For a while I was back in crush land. Desperately trying to not show how thrilled I was to see him for the first time in 5 months or so, trying to make sure I didn't look at him too often or stare or *blah blah blah stupid childish girl crap* ... DB got VERY drunk and when Renee said she wasn't going go join us at R&R's house, I offered him a ride. That's when he told me that he gets very hands-y when he drinks, and that if I had a problem with that I needed to "kick him in the shins early on" lol. Who am I to turn down cuddling at R&R's place? So I said I didn't mind. I didn't really anticipate quite HOW hands-y he was going to get back there. We all settled in and started watching Batman Begins, H fell asleep fast, CW left pretty early on. DB and I were on the lounge and he was being frisky under the camouflage of a blanket. Subtle, eh? haha I doubt anyone missed what he was trying for, and I'm sorry but I am not all that thrilled with the thought of an audience.
Once Joe and Z got there, I decided enough was enough (That and I got a finger in the eyeball which sent me to the bathroom to wash my makeup out of it and clean up) and I was going to take a lesson from DB and stop being stupid and subtle. So I went and stole Z's seat when he got up, and when he came back I made him sit with me. We ended up having a VERY nice cuddle for a little bit, which is just one of my favorite damn things in the world. While I still wish we could have a lot more than we do, and I still feel a great deal for him, I am pleased to say I am over my stupid giddy-school-girl crush!!! I'm so pleased. Though the adrenaline rush of just Looking at a crush or brushing up against them will be missed. What's left is a familiar, comfortable fondness, and a bit of frustration. At some point in the not-too-distant-future I would like to see if anything happens with a SOBER DB, as he's also very good at cuddling, and from what I tasted tonight seems like he could be rather good at other things as well! hehe
So that was my day. I think the only thing that could have made it better would have been... well, a bit more! ;)