meeeehhhhhhhhhhh
weird night.....and it sucks that i went to bed around 4:30-4:45ish, and got up just after 8...weee....me own special form of insomnia, can never sleep past a certain point..but enough of that..........i actually went out, got paid to do so, got paid to sit there filming burlesque dancers....yeah....it was a good gig, thanks miss dandypants for hooking that up.........the show was fun, it went really smoothly....had some stupid women who was sitting beside me, and then all of a sudden she's sitting in front of me...and it's like....uh...hello, i'm filming, your heads in the way, ugh....she was annoying at the intermission she turned around and tried to bitch at me about how "i sent out some really negative energy, and i just have to deal the repercutions..." and some other stupid hippy bullshit, fucking neslon, only here can you have some drama with some random person and have them tell you about some energy hippy bullshit or something....and of course i'm sending out negative energy...your being a fucking cow!!....ugh....once again thanks to miss dandypants for diffusing the situation, and making it so if she bugged me again i could get the bouncer to kick her out, theres was a good talk, the lady sat there and said nothing for the rest of the show.....and i actually got out there and danced, it kinda really creeped me out, i don't get interacting with people, especially on the dance floor, at one point i went onto the floor and the was only a few people dancing, and one of them was a fairly hot chick and when i get on the dance floor she locks my eyes and comes straight for me....and here i am being freaked out going "don't run away, just stay and dance...look at the floor...shit, she's still looking at me, fuck...was that a smile, oh no, i think she tried to move closer...ahh....what do i do, what do i do....eep....don't run away".....ugh...i'm so lame, i don't even know how to dance with someone at a bar, especially some random person....she had such an intense look......ugh*shudder*..eyecontact...ugh......maybe i should have done something...ugh....yay for being too shy and getting freaked out.........had an amussing time turning on a crossdresser and got him hard(kinda sucks when your tucked) just by telling him about my peircings....i think he likes me, he's way too young and male, but he does do a very good job as a women, pretty face....relaxation time was good, down time nice, and then it was back out to some weird random trance party in a yoga studio, we had to take off our socks, sock dancing on nice slippy floors is fun....man, hippies are fucking stupid, i saw some hippy guy dancing around with his infant/todler on his shoulders.....yeah, like thats going to be real good for the kid...and it's hearing, man people are smart.....danced my ass off at the random party way more so than after the show, i hardly ever get out and dance anymore, too many people, yesterday was definatly too peoply....today will probably be a nice down day, yesterday was almost too much, but i managed.