hmmmmm...
well well well....look at me.
Writing in my forgotten LiveJournal.
So, uhhhhh....I really dont know what to say or how to say it or where to begin.
Pretty much....
A lot has changed lately.
Friends come and go. Even if it hurts and keeps you up at night with tears in your eyes. It happens. And I guess you've just got to have the strength to get through.
I've realized in the last week, how much i really od love and appreciate the people in my life. With all the guys at my house the other day, we talked about everything and got back to what our family really means.
Tommy, Jacob, Jay, Ryan, Mikey D, Logan, Stamps. I love you guys more than fricken anything in this world, and the words we said to each other the other day mean more to me than you'll ever know. Its amazing to know we all have that bond together, and we wont lose it.
Friends. Family. Forever.
Thats what its all about.
I've gotten back to a good friendship with Ashlee, and thats one of the best desicions I've made in years! That girl makes my life so much different. She doesnt bring me down like a lot of people, she does the opposite. She's always there for me, no matter what the situation. We bicker a lot, but whatever....i still love her. No matter how hard she slams my doors. haha.
It good to have her, an amazing girl, in my life, there for me no matter what. And i look forward for years to come with her there. No matter what mistakes anyone has made, I see the real person she is, and Im more mature than to say something about someones past that I have no right saying. And yeah, its going to suck leaving her, but its going to suck leaving everyone else too.
I dont have a girlfriend, and I dont miss having a girlfriend. Especially Brooke. Shes the last thing I need in my life.
I cant say i dont miss her or care about her. I mean, I could. But i'd be lying.
well...no I actually dont miss her. And I dont really care what she does either. I mean....i dont want her to die or anything....but I definately wouldnt take the bullet. She's completely forsaken me when I was at my lowest....twice. And She's become completely disgusting too...so it makes it easier to not g.a.f.
So yeah...I dont miss her. eww. Or at least the person she is now. I miss the old Brooke. The REAL Brooke that I know and all these "cool" "popular" kids dont know.
I leave for tour soon, almost 3 months. Going to be absolutely amazing! Im so stoked.
And for the record.....eff everything you've heard. IM STILL EDGE!
I mean, yeah I do smoke pot and crap...but that doesnt count.
Im not going to keep rambling though about stupid crap, sooooo...... yeah. I could go onnnn and onnn abbout people spreading rumours about me, and "friends" talkin madddd crap on me, and completely ignorant jackasses making fools of themseleves saying things that are sooooo whack and 100% untrue....but im not going to. Because it's pretty amusing, so I dont want to ruin anyones fun. So go on.
"What the f--k do you know about me? Why the f--k do YOU care what I do? Who the f--k are you? You think I care about you or what you say about me? Keep talking s--t. You think I care what you write or what people read on me?"
I love my choices. I love my lifestyle. I love my God.
and I do these things for ME. Why would I live my life according to someone else's beliefs?
Anyways, everyone will grow up and get out of this middle school frame of mind eventually.
So good luck with that.
Until then...
FTW. GDHS. XXX. 879. DILIGAF.
hahahahaha
<3
Writing in my forgotten LiveJournal.
So, uhhhhh....I really dont know what to say or how to say it or where to begin.
Pretty much....
A lot has changed lately.
Friends come and go. Even if it hurts and keeps you up at night with tears in your eyes. It happens. And I guess you've just got to have the strength to get through.
I've realized in the last week, how much i really od love and appreciate the people in my life. With all the guys at my house the other day, we talked about everything and got back to what our family really means.
Tommy, Jacob, Jay, Ryan, Mikey D, Logan, Stamps. I love you guys more than fricken anything in this world, and the words we said to each other the other day mean more to me than you'll ever know. Its amazing to know we all have that bond together, and we wont lose it.
Friends. Family. Forever.
Thats what its all about.
I've gotten back to a good friendship with Ashlee, and thats one of the best desicions I've made in years! That girl makes my life so much different. She doesnt bring me down like a lot of people, she does the opposite. She's always there for me, no matter what the situation. We bicker a lot, but whatever....i still love her. No matter how hard she slams my doors. haha.
It good to have her, an amazing girl, in my life, there for me no matter what. And i look forward for years to come with her there. No matter what mistakes anyone has made, I see the real person she is, and Im more mature than to say something about someones past that I have no right saying. And yeah, its going to suck leaving her, but its going to suck leaving everyone else too.
I dont have a girlfriend, and I dont miss having a girlfriend. Especially Brooke. Shes the last thing I need in my life.
I cant say i dont miss her or care about her. I mean, I could. But i'd be lying.
well...no I actually dont miss her. And I dont really care what she does either. I mean....i dont want her to die or anything....but I definately wouldnt take the bullet. She's completely forsaken me when I was at my lowest....twice. And She's become completely disgusting too...so it makes it easier to not g.a.f.
So yeah...I dont miss her. eww. Or at least the person she is now. I miss the old Brooke. The REAL Brooke that I know and all these "cool" "popular" kids dont know.
I leave for tour soon, almost 3 months. Going to be absolutely amazing! Im so stoked.
And for the record.....eff everything you've heard. IM STILL EDGE!
I mean, yeah I do smoke pot and crap...but that doesnt count.
Im not going to keep rambling though about stupid crap, sooooo...... yeah. I could go onnnn and onnn abbout people spreading rumours about me, and "friends" talkin madddd crap on me, and completely ignorant jackasses making fools of themseleves saying things that are sooooo whack and 100% untrue....but im not going to. Because it's pretty amusing, so I dont want to ruin anyones fun. So go on.
"What the f--k do you know about me? Why the f--k do YOU care what I do? Who the f--k are you? You think I care about you or what you say about me? Keep talking s--t. You think I care what you write or what people read on me?"
I love my choices. I love my lifestyle. I love my God.
and I do these things for ME. Why would I live my life according to someone else's beliefs?
Anyways, everyone will grow up and get out of this middle school frame of mind eventually.
So good luck with that.
Until then...
FTW. GDHS. XXX. 879. DILIGAF.
hahahahaha
<3