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There is tired. There is really tired. There is "I can't concentrate" tired. There is "I have no idea what day it is" tired.
And there seems to be another level of tired - one where you don't so much as sleep, but simply shut down.
I haven't been sleeping really well of late, and have slowly been progressing through the various stages of tiredness. I've been not really knowing what day it is for about a week now, I think, and have found myself losing track of pretty much anything I've been doing.
For instance, that above paragraph probably started out a lot different to how it ended. I just changed my mind halfway through as to what I wanted to say. Anyhow, a housemate and I were talking about being so tired you don't sleep, and we seem to have come up with a semi-logical explanation for why you would just shut down. But that's not what I'm going to go on about.
One of my work friends and I organised a Melbourne Cup trivia event, which we ran yesterday. By which I read all the questions and played the part of entertainer, and she kept track of scores and made calls on controversial answers. It worked really well, and we got a lot of good feedback from those who hung around and gamed.
The sad thing is that it took a lot of energy to make myself be happy for an hour and a half in front of my peers. Not only look happy, but act, sound and essentially be happy. And to top it off, the running guys and I went for a 5km run after the whole thing, just to make sure we can run 5km for the PWC CoolNightClassic tomorrow night. So I was shattered when I got home last night, but I didn't sleep. I just lay on my bed for a few hours, conscious on some level but not really noticing what was happening around me. When I got to sleep, it was only for a couple of hours tops, before I woke up again, feeling just as screwed as when I got home.
So, today I was really tired, and pretty much wanted to tell everyone to go fuck themselves and not talk to me. Had I done this, it could have made my day 10x better. Well, maybe not that much better, but at least a little better. To be honest, I didn't talk to that many people, but I was on the verge of verbally abusing anyone who asked me a question. Today made me realise just how stupid some people can be. Which brings me around to the topic.
Stupidity v Idiocy
See, I think stupidity is when you can't figure out (or don't try figuring out for yourself) something that should be plainly obvious, whilst idiocy is when you draw a completely illogical and incorrect solution from a simple situation. Let's consider an example.
Three people walk up to a closed door. The door has a handle. Each person knows they need to pass through the door.
The normal person tries pushing the handle, and opens the door. The stupid person looks at the door, and then goes to ask someone for the answer. The idiot looks at the door, thinks the only way to get past is to use his head as a battering ram to get through.
It's a fine distinction, and one that is probably once again unique to me, but it makes sense to me, and that's all this blog is concerned about.
I have a 100km push bike ride on the weekend. Next weekend is the second tri of the season - I have a feeling I'm going to fail my sub-30minute goal, probably because I feel like crap right now and just want to go on a selective, murderous, gene-pool cleansing rampage. The weekend after that, I might have off, and the one following is currently under review for a trip up to the ol' township of Toowoomba to catch up with a bunch of folk I haven't really seen all that well in quite some time.
But let's keep taking things one day at a time. Current silver lining - I am no longer relying on alcohol to get me to sleep...although that doesn't seem to be working too well. At least I'm not putting on more weight?
And there seems to be another level of tired - one where you don't so much as sleep, but simply shut down.
I haven't been sleeping really well of late, and have slowly been progressing through the various stages of tiredness. I've been not really knowing what day it is for about a week now, I think, and have found myself losing track of pretty much anything I've been doing.
For instance, that above paragraph probably started out a lot different to how it ended. I just changed my mind halfway through as to what I wanted to say. Anyhow, a housemate and I were talking about being so tired you don't sleep, and we seem to have come up with a semi-logical explanation for why you would just shut down. But that's not what I'm going to go on about.
One of my work friends and I organised a Melbourne Cup trivia event, which we ran yesterday. By which I read all the questions and played the part of entertainer, and she kept track of scores and made calls on controversial answers. It worked really well, and we got a lot of good feedback from those who hung around and gamed.
The sad thing is that it took a lot of energy to make myself be happy for an hour and a half in front of my peers. Not only look happy, but act, sound and essentially be happy. And to top it off, the running guys and I went for a 5km run after the whole thing, just to make sure we can run 5km for the PWC CoolNightClassic tomorrow night. So I was shattered when I got home last night, but I didn't sleep. I just lay on my bed for a few hours, conscious on some level but not really noticing what was happening around me. When I got to sleep, it was only for a couple of hours tops, before I woke up again, feeling just as screwed as when I got home.
So, today I was really tired, and pretty much wanted to tell everyone to go fuck themselves and not talk to me. Had I done this, it could have made my day 10x better. Well, maybe not that much better, but at least a little better. To be honest, I didn't talk to that many people, but I was on the verge of verbally abusing anyone who asked me a question. Today made me realise just how stupid some people can be. Which brings me around to the topic.
Stupidity v Idiocy
See, I think stupidity is when you can't figure out (or don't try figuring out for yourself) something that should be plainly obvious, whilst idiocy is when you draw a completely illogical and incorrect solution from a simple situation. Let's consider an example.
Three people walk up to a closed door. The door has a handle. Each person knows they need to pass through the door.
The normal person tries pushing the handle, and opens the door. The stupid person looks at the door, and then goes to ask someone for the answer. The idiot looks at the door, thinks the only way to get past is to use his head as a battering ram to get through.
It's a fine distinction, and one that is probably once again unique to me, but it makes sense to me, and that's all this blog is concerned about.
I have a 100km push bike ride on the weekend. Next weekend is the second tri of the season - I have a feeling I'm going to fail my sub-30minute goal, probably because I feel like crap right now and just want to go on a selective, murderous, gene-pool cleansing rampage. The weekend after that, I might have off, and the one following is currently under review for a trip up to the ol' township of Toowoomba to catch up with a bunch of folk I haven't really seen all that well in quite some time.
But let's keep taking things one day at a time. Current silver lining - I am no longer relying on alcohol to get me to sleep...although that doesn't seem to be working too well. At least I'm not putting on more weight?