So i have been reviewing old journal entries. I have found that most of my entires have been surrounded by five things. I find that most my journal entries are all about, women, money, work, smoking, and future. I am not sure how to fix any of them. I find, as I get older, more positive that I can work them out into a system that can be ( Read more... )

La la la, I don't know what to do. I want to start all over. Just do not know from where. I like the concept of dissociative fugue.

La la la, nothing to say. Just chillin here at mojos waiting for my brain to work. I think i may ( Read more... )

I walked/ran 2mi today, I felt good. I hope to be able to run 2 mi straight, some day. doing that will be hard. I sit on my arse all day at work. I hope to get more energy by exercising more. I have been way too lazy lately. I need to find some focus. I hope exercising will help. I have also made another good step. I went to a dentist and ( Read more... )

I get to go to the dentist and get my teeth drilled on, YaY!!!!. Not really Bah I hope this does not hurt too bad. Regardless, It is good to get my teeth worked on. It has been a while since I have had them worked on. I hope the bill wont be too expensive. We will see.

I think I am going to exercise today. Mwaaa Mwaaaa Mwaa Cough, gag, wheeze

I feel so worn, I really hate my anxiety. I feel as if I am going to explode. I am so tired of avoiding my problems. I just do not know how to move when faced with stress. I think I am one of those goats that seize up when you scare it. What a defense mechanism. I suppose it has purpose, It keeps me from dealing with unnecessary problems ( Read more... )

I need to find a new job, Perhaps one in the revolutionary department somewhere. I could be a freedom fighter. But what I really want to be is a professional wanderer. I wonder if that is possible. I really need to learn how to write better.