Ambition...no longer a four letter word
Well if you havent already noticed its about 24 degrees below zero right now, but that's not stopping me.. lol.. So i have gotten through my 3rd class at farrells and am so proud of myself, i love this program all of the trainers and intructors are super nice and so are the maintenance people (people who are coming back to stay with the program) its hard work, but i know it will pay off in the end.
I havent heard from will in over a week, and though i care for him VERY much, I know by not being weak and "leaving the ball in his corner to let him come to me" which he is isn't exactly doing nor do i expect him to ever call im doing the right thing...right? Its hard too, but like the last paragraph.. it will make me stronger and pay off in the end.
Work still sucks, and i almost considered inquiring about employment as a phone sex operator for (a.) the money and (b.) the fact that it just sounded fun and exciting.. lol i am just too odd! hehehe.. I don't diss my job... lol ya i do, but.. i mean the people there are all relatively nice, its just that its not the line of work i am cut out for. Honestly! mcdonalds or in a hollywood movie.. i need something that will give me the chance to just let my creative freedom sore, but then again not too many jobs out there for me now.
Do you ever just want to just say fuck em all and just quit your job and take a walk on the wild side? i do, but then again that might not be the smartest thing to do...hmmmmmmmm what to talk about...
i dunno, i just need to go on an adventure or something..maybe a vacation? do people still go on adventures? i know lisa and i have, but nothin lately.. maybe this spring will bring some surprises, who knows, but until then i guess i will just have to wait.. patient or impatient.. lol
ttyl,
josh
xoxoxox
I havent heard from will in over a week, and though i care for him VERY much, I know by not being weak and "leaving the ball in his corner to let him come to me" which he is isn't exactly doing nor do i expect him to ever call im doing the right thing...right? Its hard too, but like the last paragraph.. it will make me stronger and pay off in the end.
Work still sucks, and i almost considered inquiring about employment as a phone sex operator for (a.) the money and (b.) the fact that it just sounded fun and exciting.. lol i am just too odd! hehehe.. I don't diss my job... lol ya i do, but.. i mean the people there are all relatively nice, its just that its not the line of work i am cut out for. Honestly! mcdonalds or in a hollywood movie.. i need something that will give me the chance to just let my creative freedom sore, but then again not too many jobs out there for me now.
Do you ever just want to just say fuck em all and just quit your job and take a walk on the wild side? i do, but then again that might not be the smartest thing to do...hmmmmmmmm what to talk about...
i dunno, i just need to go on an adventure or something..maybe a vacation? do people still go on adventures? i know lisa and i have, but nothin lately.. maybe this spring will bring some surprises, who knows, but until then i guess i will just have to wait.. patient or impatient.. lol
ttyl,
josh
xoxoxox