Honest to Blog
So basically this is my first entry and I've picked a great time to update my journal because I'm in a MOOD. I've finally found a girl who is alot like me and likes me for who I am and is just all around awesome. We've been dating for a month and a week, and let me tell you thats like a record for me because usually I get broken up with within the first few weeks. So for our one month anniversary I got her a dozen roses and what not, and we dont get to see each other that much because of work schedules. So on Monday we hung out at my house and watched and movie and cuddled and what have you. It was really nice, but she just seemed real distant. She was only giving me one worded text messages and acting odd. Not like she normally acts all chipper and stuff when she talks to me. So today I come home and Crystal said I have to tell you something. She happened to click into her comments and there have been multiple comments from this boy named Kyle from Green Dale. He was calling her baby and putting hearts at the end of his sentences. So I called Jenna and told her what was said and she told me not to worry because Amy loves me and what not. She asked Amy who Kyle was and she said he was a childhood friend. Then why is he telling her that she's beautiful and he loves her eyes and all this shit. I cant see what she was saying to him because his page is private, but it makes me wonder. I really love this girl and she told me she loves me too. I dont know what I did wrong to deserve this but I guess its just how my life always works out. I really sound emo but this is what is on my mind right now. I dont know what I'm going to do about it. I guess I should talk to her about it but she doesnt like to open up about anything. She just keeps everything locked up inside of her until she gets pissed off and then wont talk to anyone. I wish I knew what was going on because I cant keep thinking the worse possible thing, ya kno?
My boss Sheila quit today, she got accepted into Tuskeegee University or something in Alabama. She's going to become a Vet for like Cows and things. She seems really happy but that means we're short a pharmacist, and nobody ever wants to come work in our store because it's so out in the middle of nowhere. Jamie was there today and we got to talking. I think I'm going to apply for UMES next fall because they're starting a pharmacy program. I'm really good at my job and I kno my shit and everyone agrees. But I dont think I could do 6 years of school. I am not good at tests and I tend to freak out. I cant concentrate and so studying would suck. If I really put my mind to it I know I could do it. Its just a matter of money and driving to Salisbury for classes and then working and I dont know..Its something I'm really going to have to think about.
On another note, when I failed my certification exam before, I was crushed, I cried for weeks. But I got over it and in order for Walgreens to pay for the test again, I had to go through all the classes again. So I went through them again with Jenna this time and next thursday is our review class and then we can go take our test asap. I got my letter in the mail yesterday and it said I can schedule my test anytime between April 28th and June 20th. I'm really scared that I'm going to fail again, but when I took my pre test I got a 73% and its been told that the pre test is actually harder..Well then the test I took last time must have been the hardest fucking one, because I was sooo lost. I know I can do it this time, I just know it and then I will be promoted to Senior Technician and I will get more money and bonuses and this and that. And things will be good.
I've just got all this going on right now and I cant even think straight. Im basically emotionless right now and it really sucks, because of one thing happening my whole happy life that I had for a month has been ripped away and its really shitty. I just hope everything works out in the end for me and it will just come easily, which I dont see that happening. Oh well..I guess I'll just wrap this up..Peace
Josh
My boss Sheila quit today, she got accepted into Tuskeegee University or something in Alabama. She's going to become a Vet for like Cows and things. She seems really happy but that means we're short a pharmacist, and nobody ever wants to come work in our store because it's so out in the middle of nowhere. Jamie was there today and we got to talking. I think I'm going to apply for UMES next fall because they're starting a pharmacy program. I'm really good at my job and I kno my shit and everyone agrees. But I dont think I could do 6 years of school. I am not good at tests and I tend to freak out. I cant concentrate and so studying would suck. If I really put my mind to it I know I could do it. Its just a matter of money and driving to Salisbury for classes and then working and I dont know..Its something I'm really going to have to think about.
On another note, when I failed my certification exam before, I was crushed, I cried for weeks. But I got over it and in order for Walgreens to pay for the test again, I had to go through all the classes again. So I went through them again with Jenna this time and next thursday is our review class and then we can go take our test asap. I got my letter in the mail yesterday and it said I can schedule my test anytime between April 28th and June 20th. I'm really scared that I'm going to fail again, but when I took my pre test I got a 73% and its been told that the pre test is actually harder..Well then the test I took last time must have been the hardest fucking one, because I was sooo lost. I know I can do it this time, I just know it and then I will be promoted to Senior Technician and I will get more money and bonuses and this and that. And things will be good.
I've just got all this going on right now and I cant even think straight. Im basically emotionless right now and it really sucks, because of one thing happening my whole happy life that I had for a month has been ripped away and its really shitty. I just hope everything works out in the end for me and it will just come easily, which I dont see that happening. Oh well..I guess I'll just wrap this up..Peace
Josh