fuck
so.. im here all alone at my house. nothing to do but think about myself and life. i think that i have no control over it really. im sorta lost in my feelings. im really confused. sorta scared. ive never really made a step like this in my life befor. and im not sure if its even gonna work. i dont know if im being used. taken advantage of. i dont know if my whole life is a lie right now. i met so many new people, and i love hanging out with them. and everyone has been so nice to me. but in the back of my head everything feels fake. like nothing around me is real. do i have a mask over my face right now? am i just hiding from the truth because i dont like what the truth really is? fuck. im way to paranoid for my own good. i love you all and hate you at the same time.