I found it
Today was the funeral for my grandmother who passed away yesterday Thursday December 2nd at twelve thirty two pm. She was with my father and my two pastors Carlos and Eli. She went peacefully and without pain thank God. For almost a week I have been troubled by many things which I could not figure out, it was like I felt like something was bothering me but couldn't figure out what it was. Today I found out, my grandmother passed peacefully with family and friends at her side. She spent her last week and last birthday with family and friends singing her favorite hymns and clapping to them despite her weakness. We spent this time crying and laughing and growing closer as a family.
Today I found out my grandmother accepted The Lord God our as her savior when she was in El Salvador in 1953. This made it easy to accept her passing for she was in a better place. I never knew what that was to accept that God had a place for us when we left this world. I believed there was one and yesterday when Fields asked me if I doubted I said yes for it is normal. Is it worth believing something you don't doubt and if my own life has changed as well as those lives around me how could one like God not exist. I say now that I don't believe I know that God is real. A faith that dates back to my grandmother. Also why people said that Christians cry at funerals but tears of joy. Today I found out why. We each got up and said some words about my grandmother. Here are a few... My grandmother was a devote Christian and though money was low she never worried about it in fact she would give to those in need. My aunt not understanding why would ask why she did this when they needed charity as well. Her faith in the lord helped her when she had little she put others before her. She taught for over thirty years and taught her students not only about academics but about life. Anyone can learn to read write and add but it takes and extra something to teach how to live. When my grandmother was old and her mind started going to alzymers she kept one thing her faith. I still remember her sitting on our couch just praying to herself and praising the Lord for whom she seemed to always have strength. It is this faith that was beyond faith but true knowledge that God would guide her and her family throughout all obstacle that has inspired me.
I found my answers to my worries. Many know that I wish to seek a degree in education and then go into the ministry as a pastor. My worries were for the family I wish to have and the fact that pastors paycheck is not impressive. But faith guided my grandmother and she got what they needed because she knew God would guide her through. I now believe that My God will not desert me when my faith in him is strong. I thank God also that my grandmother passed her passion on to her children and they unto theirs. I recently said that my morals and values were rooted in a place that was unshakable, this place was God. I thought it came from my parents but it originated in my grandmother and what she showed her children. Though she may be gone from this world I delight in know she has received the reward and rest she always sought and her legacy will live on through me and my example of faith that has come from so far in my families history and will continue through my and this generation’s children.
My mind is at ease that so many things could have been said for God about my grandmother's life.
Today I tell all of you who seek a higher purpose, meaning, acceptance, life, relief, rest, peace, love, trust, and a place to run to when no one int his world seems to be there for you....
...GOD IS WAITING FOR YOU CALL TO HIM WITH ALL YOUR HEART FOR HE LONGS TO HEAR YOU CALL HIM. He waits for that moment when you realize that life is more than what you have and that he has a plan and purpose for each life created. He wishes you to be with him and good works or deeds, charity, and anything you can physically do WILL NOT GET YOU TO HEAVEN, instead it only when you call to God with a passion from your heart that he will reach and pluck you from the depths, rescue you, and hold you in his grace for all eternity. He only waits for you to want him for He has always wanted you even when you were unclean and under death from the law he gave the opportunity to be given life under grace.
If anyone wishes to speak more on this topic post of call me 378 1147. we can discuss further the wonders of God.
[Hook]
I got a part to play, we going hard these days
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
I say the shit these people ain't got the heart to say
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
[1st Verse]
You say you never scared there's kids in other countries
Making jerseys, jeans, and sneakers they could never wear
Parents never there, they're busy building homes they can't afford to buy
Cars they can't afford to drive
Working jobs that don't support their life
You busy screaming gangsta, gangsta all that talk is strife
You already know lost the fight if you don't know the cost of life
These kids is forced to fight a war they can't outrun
Ain't got no shoes but got a gun
Now where the fuck he pulled that out from?
People ask me how we wearing diamonds
When there's little kids in Sierra Leone
Losing arms for crying while they mining
Probably an orphan who's momma died of AIDS
He built a coffin working often but he never paid
Forever slaving in the world that's forever cold
Becoming the man of the house at 11 years old
This reality rap, I get inside the mentality that...
Terrorize you like a cowardly act
[Hook]
I got a part to play, we going hard these days
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
I say the shit these people ain't got the heart to say
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
[2nd Verse]
I was sold to a sick European by a rich African battlin'
Middle Passages, I can't go back again
Battlin' years of denied history, lies and mysteries
Wives with misty eyes watchin' their husbands be beaten viciously
Battle in the wilderness of North America
Run by the river, only stoppin' to pray chased by predators
Terrorists with etiquette who vote and kill their president
Their capacity for evil so evident and prevalent
Ain't no hesitation involved, a nation dissolved
While we sit back waitin' to evolve
Those who would trade in their freedom
For their protection deserve neither
Not a name, not tradition
Religion, you learn Jesus
Turn the other cheek
Inherit the Earth, just stay meek
Fuck the way you speak
Try to run, we chop off your feet
Fast forward to 2004 we selling
Yo this ain't what I'm settling for
I want more, yo
[Hook]
I got a part to play, we going hard these days
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
I say the shit these people ain't got the heart to say
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
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Today I found out my grandmother accepted The Lord God our as her savior when she was in El Salvador in 1953. This made it easy to accept her passing for she was in a better place. I never knew what that was to accept that God had a place for us when we left this world. I believed there was one and yesterday when Fields asked me if I doubted I said yes for it is normal. Is it worth believing something you don't doubt and if my own life has changed as well as those lives around me how could one like God not exist. I say now that I don't believe I know that God is real. A faith that dates back to my grandmother. Also why people said that Christians cry at funerals but tears of joy. Today I found out why. We each got up and said some words about my grandmother. Here are a few... My grandmother was a devote Christian and though money was low she never worried about it in fact she would give to those in need. My aunt not understanding why would ask why she did this when they needed charity as well. Her faith in the lord helped her when she had little she put others before her. She taught for over thirty years and taught her students not only about academics but about life. Anyone can learn to read write and add but it takes and extra something to teach how to live. When my grandmother was old and her mind started going to alzymers she kept one thing her faith. I still remember her sitting on our couch just praying to herself and praising the Lord for whom she seemed to always have strength. It is this faith that was beyond faith but true knowledge that God would guide her and her family throughout all obstacle that has inspired me.
I found my answers to my worries. Many know that I wish to seek a degree in education and then go into the ministry as a pastor. My worries were for the family I wish to have and the fact that pastors paycheck is not impressive. But faith guided my grandmother and she got what they needed because she knew God would guide her through. I now believe that My God will not desert me when my faith in him is strong. I thank God also that my grandmother passed her passion on to her children and they unto theirs. I recently said that my morals and values were rooted in a place that was unshakable, this place was God. I thought it came from my parents but it originated in my grandmother and what she showed her children. Though she may be gone from this world I delight in know she has received the reward and rest she always sought and her legacy will live on through me and my example of faith that has come from so far in my families history and will continue through my and this generation’s children.
My mind is at ease that so many things could have been said for God about my grandmother's life.
Today I tell all of you who seek a higher purpose, meaning, acceptance, life, relief, rest, peace, love, trust, and a place to run to when no one int his world seems to be there for you....
...GOD IS WAITING FOR YOU CALL TO HIM WITH ALL YOUR HEART FOR HE LONGS TO HEAR YOU CALL HIM. He waits for that moment when you realize that life is more than what you have and that he has a plan and purpose for each life created. He wishes you to be with him and good works or deeds, charity, and anything you can physically do WILL NOT GET YOU TO HEAVEN, instead it only when you call to God with a passion from your heart that he will reach and pluck you from the depths, rescue you, and hold you in his grace for all eternity. He only waits for you to want him for He has always wanted you even when you were unclean and under death from the law he gave the opportunity to be given life under grace.
If anyone wishes to speak more on this topic post of call me 378 1147. we can discuss further the wonders of God.
[Hook]
I got a part to play, we going hard these days
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
I say the shit these people ain't got the heart to say
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
[1st Verse]
You say you never scared there's kids in other countries
Making jerseys, jeans, and sneakers they could never wear
Parents never there, they're busy building homes they can't afford to buy
Cars they can't afford to drive
Working jobs that don't support their life
You busy screaming gangsta, gangsta all that talk is strife
You already know lost the fight if you don't know the cost of life
These kids is forced to fight a war they can't outrun
Ain't got no shoes but got a gun
Now where the fuck he pulled that out from?
People ask me how we wearing diamonds
When there's little kids in Sierra Leone
Losing arms for crying while they mining
Probably an orphan who's momma died of AIDS
He built a coffin working often but he never paid
Forever slaving in the world that's forever cold
Becoming the man of the house at 11 years old
This reality rap, I get inside the mentality that...
Terrorize you like a cowardly act
[Hook]
I got a part to play, we going hard these days
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
I say the shit these people ain't got the heart to say
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
[2nd Verse]
I was sold to a sick European by a rich African battlin'
Middle Passages, I can't go back again
Battlin' years of denied history, lies and mysteries
Wives with misty eyes watchin' their husbands be beaten viciously
Battle in the wilderness of North America
Run by the river, only stoppin' to pray chased by predators
Terrorists with etiquette who vote and kill their president
Their capacity for evil so evident and prevalent
Ain't no hesitation involved, a nation dissolved
While we sit back waitin' to evolve
Those who would trade in their freedom
For their protection deserve neither
Not a name, not tradition
Religion, you learn Jesus
Turn the other cheek
Inherit the Earth, just stay meek
Fuck the way you speak
Try to run, we chop off your feet
Fast forward to 2004 we selling
Yo this ain't what I'm settling for
I want more, yo
[Hook]
I got a part to play, we going hard these days
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
I say the shit these people ain't got the heart to say
Fuck the harder way, we doing it the smarter way
To my god I pray, that's how I start my day
The bullets starts to spray the revolution starts today
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