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i'm feeling perpetually overwhelmed this semester. i feel like all i'm getting from the people in my life is "you need to be more, do more!" and i'm just trying to keep my head above water. and the people that are being like this are my professors, and the girl that coaches our volleyball team ... so i can't get away from it, but i just, i can't handle it. they're sucking my will to live.
i worked on a take-home midterm yesterday morning and got it done, and i was stoked. go to class today and he says "oh there's a typo in it." luckily it didn't affect my answer. then he says "oh and you should triple space it and put 1.5 in margins becaue otherwise i don't have room to write all the comments i want to write." and i don't know, he just really gets under my skin to begin with. then i went to another class, and the first thing in the class was the prof talking about how we could not do what she expects of us but don't be complaining when we get our grades, then this girl comes in and says (excuse the language it's a direct quote) "so do we just get to bitch about how amazingly ignorant these people are?" and it made me upset. and then the prof is talking about how she's disturbed by the amount of apathy she sees in college students and that we should be more involved in the community and such and such and so and so and that we waste all our time on stupid things. (at which point i was thinking, "no i waste all my time on your class" but i feel like that would be an inappropriate comment.)
so that kinda set up my bad mood, that and that she wants me to have a couple pages of my final paper written for monday and i can't even think straight enough to write a coherent paragraph much less two pages of a paper that actually matters. then i went to volleyball practice, and i'm completely wiped from the day to begin with and then all i get from barb is "jordan use two hands!" "move your feet defense!" "c'mon pick those balls up!" ... nothing encouraging, just "you're doing this wrong, give me more effort!"
and i can't. i want to just cry about it. but no, i have to study characters because i have yet another quiz tomorrow morning and a test on friday, not to mention that tomorrow i have two papers to be working on and a final project. oh but i'm supposed to be starting meeting with my group for our final chinese skit too, because i obviously have that kind of time on my hands. oh and don't forget that i'm apathetic and not involved enough in the community and am wasting my time.
i feel like i'm drowning. hopefully the weekend away will help.
i worked on a take-home midterm yesterday morning and got it done, and i was stoked. go to class today and he says "oh there's a typo in it." luckily it didn't affect my answer. then he says "oh and you should triple space it and put 1.5 in margins becaue otherwise i don't have room to write all the comments i want to write." and i don't know, he just really gets under my skin to begin with. then i went to another class, and the first thing in the class was the prof talking about how we could not do what she expects of us but don't be complaining when we get our grades, then this girl comes in and says (excuse the language it's a direct quote) "so do we just get to bitch about how amazingly ignorant these people are?" and it made me upset. and then the prof is talking about how she's disturbed by the amount of apathy she sees in college students and that we should be more involved in the community and such and such and so and so and that we waste all our time on stupid things. (at which point i was thinking, "no i waste all my time on your class" but i feel like that would be an inappropriate comment.)
so that kinda set up my bad mood, that and that she wants me to have a couple pages of my final paper written for monday and i can't even think straight enough to write a coherent paragraph much less two pages of a paper that actually matters. then i went to volleyball practice, and i'm completely wiped from the day to begin with and then all i get from barb is "jordan use two hands!" "move your feet defense!" "c'mon pick those balls up!" ... nothing encouraging, just "you're doing this wrong, give me more effort!"
and i can't. i want to just cry about it. but no, i have to study characters because i have yet another quiz tomorrow morning and a test on friday, not to mention that tomorrow i have two papers to be working on and a final project. oh but i'm supposed to be starting meeting with my group for our final chinese skit too, because i obviously have that kind of time on my hands. oh and don't forget that i'm apathetic and not involved enough in the community and am wasting my time.
i feel like i'm drowning. hopefully the weekend away will help.