i wish someone could give me advice
Brenda recently posted a comment from my previous entry teling me that we should get together with a bunch of people and then maybe when i wake up in the morning i'll say "i dont need a boy my friends are enough" i thought about that long and hard and came to the conclusion (no offense bren) but i do need a guy. I mean i love my friends, if i ever needed to talk to one of them, they would be all ears to listen, but like i said in my last entry, i really (right now in my life) need someone to just be there to comfort me when i need it, and i can't seem to find that in any of my guy friends. I dont think i've been this lonely and this confused about being lonely in a long time, i'm usually that girl that sees the positive side in just about everything and always there to entertain other people and cheer them up, i'm usually the one comforting other people who need it. I've realized though that i'm one of those people now who need comforting myself. I'm getting tired of being the person always giving comfort and never really receiving it when i need it most. I'm so confused right now, i dont knwo what i'm going through, i dont know if this is just my hormones racing, i dont know if this is me telling myself "you need more attention from guys", i dont know if this is me trying to tell myself i need to feel more loved, i want to feel more loved, i just dont know, those are all just suggestions of what i might be feeling...i wish someone had answers for me, advice, something reasonable. I know i shouldn't be all upset over something completely pointless as feeling lonely, i knwo theres worse problems out there, worse things that could happen to make me feel worthless, shitty and unloved, it's just i've gone without a guy hugging me or just telling how much they appreciate me in a long time. And when i get like this i tend to make my anxiety work up big time, which leads to alot of emotion over stupid little things, like this...