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Vid called mum. Didn't know what to tell her. Didn't know how to update her. Scared to sleep again. Scared to take dorms again. Lexo-ed. Dunno if it'll work. The dreams haven't stopped. Afternoon or night, the nightmares come and I wake up panting or short of breath. Garmin Watch reads it as high stress as my heart rate skips up and down. Time will heal. Just time. Unloading here before i attempt sleep. Will bring biggobaggo for dr ang tom. Maybe gym regardless of crowd. Pre work out is ok too coz I'm going to meet allan jack arden and kevin. Kevin is going back to china on Monday. Don't know how to update them either but I will. After 35 years I think they deserve that much. Arden I've known since p3. Ethan is asking me if I really am not going back to yyc. I am committed now. Maybe I'm being stubborn. Maybe I'm too focused on here. Yyc is better. Lifestyle and temptations and drama all considered. But Lama is right. My place is back here. No more running. Face it down or die in the process. Simple and elegant.
Om tsale tsule chundi soha
Unloaded. Time for bed ju. Let it go.
Om tsale tsule chundi soha
Unloaded. Time for bed ju. Let it go.