errrrg......
ok so lately I had been feeling sorta down for no reason....and it was coming in waves....like I'd be fine for a coupla days then I'd be suddenly depressed for no REAL reason.....so anyways I read this book that Andrea gave me and we had been talking about it and I'm starting to get a handle on things and when I start to notice myself goin in a bad direction I'm starting to be able to know how to get out of that train of thought and avoid the whole unnecesary depression deal....anyways....I'm just starting to *recover* I guess.....and Andrea has totally stuck by me and kicked my butt about it whenever she's around which has been the biggest blessing ever......meanwhile Andrea's been the best person in my life period, hands down.
Anyways.....her sister asked her why I'm always sad, and she said to her that she should be with someone who's happy.......annnnd.....well...Andrea didn't know what to say really cuz she doesn't want to be telling her all about everything that's goin on with me cuz obviously it's kinda personal and I don't know her sis very well at all....but it was I dunno realy sorta disturbing to me.......like.....it's been sorta eerie how many times people have said something to Andrea about us not being together. Like this guy who she knew in high school all of a sudden called her up and was all trying to make me seem like less of a man and trying to put a rift between the two of us (not that it came even close to working) cuz he wanted to be with her....and this other guy apparently said something to the effect that "it won't last" which also kinda ticked me off....and it's not that the guy doesn't think I'm cool or anything like that....he just decided that Andrea and I wouldn't last and decided to voice his opinion like an ass.....soooo........now I have to make an extra effort to always smile around Andrea's sister so we can avoid the whole explanation deal, and it's not necessarily that I'm even sad when I'm around her sister....I just don't necessarily have a big grin on my face.....urrrrg.....it's all just a little frustrating to have people try to undermine something that's so amazing, and to not know why it's happening.......I'll talk to Andrea about it tomorrow when she comes here and on the way to pick Danielle up I guess.......but like the last coupla days I've been pretty happy......and I only saw her sis for like 2 seconds and I was walking by and my knees were hurting from work.....so maybe she thought I was sad, but I was realy just in pain......and I'm tired a lot from work.....grrr...I dunno.....it'll all work out I'm sure......
YAYAYAYAYAYAY NEW FOUND GLORY!!!!!!
Anyways.....her sister asked her why I'm always sad, and she said to her that she should be with someone who's happy.......annnnd.....well...Andrea didn't know what to say really cuz she doesn't want to be telling her all about everything that's goin on with me cuz obviously it's kinda personal and I don't know her sis very well at all....but it was I dunno realy sorta disturbing to me.......like.....it's been sorta eerie how many times people have said something to Andrea about us not being together. Like this guy who she knew in high school all of a sudden called her up and was all trying to make me seem like less of a man and trying to put a rift between the two of us (not that it came even close to working) cuz he wanted to be with her....and this other guy apparently said something to the effect that "it won't last" which also kinda ticked me off....and it's not that the guy doesn't think I'm cool or anything like that....he just decided that Andrea and I wouldn't last and decided to voice his opinion like an ass.....soooo........now I have to make an extra effort to always smile around Andrea's sister so we can avoid the whole explanation deal, and it's not necessarily that I'm even sad when I'm around her sister....I just don't necessarily have a big grin on my face.....urrrrg.....it's all just a little frustrating to have people try to undermine something that's so amazing, and to not know why it's happening.......I'll talk to Andrea about it tomorrow when she comes here and on the way to pick Danielle up I guess.......but like the last coupla days I've been pretty happy......and I only saw her sis for like 2 seconds and I was walking by and my knees were hurting from work.....so maybe she thought I was sad, but I was realy just in pain......and I'm tired a lot from work.....grrr...I dunno.....it'll all work out I'm sure......
YAYAYAYAYAYAY NEW FOUND GLORY!!!!!!