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[jonitaylor]

Okay so I haven't updated this in forever. Writing on a regular basis would probably make me feel a lot better. I've been feeling really depressed lately. It seems that whatever anti-depressant I'm on only lasts for a year or two and then I need a higher dose and eventually it stops working and I have to switch meds. I started out on Prozac

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[fiddlechick]

Wow, you've got a lot on your mind. First of all, *hugs*. After reading all this, it sounds like the main thing you need to focus on is your health. You talk a lot about the things you need money for, but I don't think that any of those are going to matter unless you get the help you need. If you put those things before your own happiness, I think you will succeed in getting them, because you always work so hard, but you won't be able to enjoy them. I hope you can take the time from at least one of the jobs to see someone about your health/mental concerns. It sounds like you could even benefit from just having someone to vent to (in which case you can always call me). But at the very least, get your medication sorted out. I know the frustration of being 'dropped' by a drug. And it sucks that it affects your body and your body image in a negative way. (Also, 155 is by no means fat!) What does Mike say about all this? Does he care about the money not being equal? I imagine he'd care more about you being okay. I wish I had better advice to give you, but I hope you can find some way to enjoy Florida, your fiance and your new home.

Also, I think you texted me asking what I was doing this summer and I forgot to reply...I work mornings in the financial aid office at school and evenings and weekends at the new hartford library, and I'm taking an online statistics class. The last couple of weeks have been sort of crazy though because one of my coworkers quit unexpectedly and I picked up his hours. If you want to talk, I'm free tomorrow night after 7, Saturday after 5 and probably all day Monday.