i don't know what the hell is going on ( Read more... )

well.. god kind of answered the prayers I was talking about in the last post.. at least... I think he did ( Read more... )

if anyone out there still does that kind of thing, can i put out a general request for prayers that if god were EVER going to just like, give me a free pass on something, please please PLEASE let it be the next three weeks.... oh hell please. one could argue i've gotten off on more than my share of violations as of late, but this is a pretty ( Read more... )

wow. i never post anymore, and usually if i do it's cryptic, vague at best, and even lately that's rare, so two real posts in one day is pretty damn good, even if one includes an aim post, 'cause the aim post was written thoughts, which lately,  i view any writing as progress, even in tangented stream of consciousness rants... and besides, that had ( Read more... )

Okay, so I was trying to talk to matt online, and then he disappeared and stopped answering me, so i made a statement, bitching for him to answer. that statement then got in my head and cause i have nothing else to do turned into this giant tangent of academic style (unorganized academic style anyhow) in which i go from grammar to origin of ( Read more... )

in the past week or two, i have learned (well... re-learned, maybe... or re-confirmed, perhaps... i dunno) that love, hate, drugs, and money... all of these things (especially the first two, but the other two help) will make people do really really stupid things, fuck over things that used to mean something (even things that meant a whole freaking ( Read more... )

---obsessed with details ( Read more... )

i have SO much shit i should be journaling, on paper or at LEAST on here, or at MINIMUM at least referencing on here so that i remember to write it for real later.... and i keep not doing it. i mean to... and then i don't follow thru. that's my problem with all of life, probably. following thru. *sigh* whatever.

I've had the most ridiculous up and down week ever. more on this shortly, i think, i actually wanna write this down so i can go through it for myself, too, so yeah. This is just to make sure i don't forget to come back to it.

I was just outside with Brian's moron dog, and looked over at my car and had to laugh because even tho the bumper has been screwed up for quite sometime... the added injuries to the bumper and the new additions to the hood make it look like I fucked it up pretty good in one big accident, lol, instead of the reality, which is about four different ( Read more... )