crushed
Well me and the love of my life have broken up again and well it hurts like a bitch cause i love her with all my heart, and it hurts to think of all the things we said to each other and now it feels as if its the complete opposite. What the hell is going on we just got back together and things were so good and we even had a long drawn out conversation on how to manage our time with our friends and each other. I kno that Thursday is her party night but ion kno. it just really bothers me that she said that a lot of the girls on campus have boyfriends but they do their own thing and she said that it wasnt cool, but commitment is and where has the commitment gone to? We're trying this new thing of not talking and its killing me kause i want her and i love her so much that i really could have seen myself in front of my pastor along with my family at the alter exchanging vows. i even said we should say pre-vows for our 2-1/2 aniversary now there isnt gonna b one. in ways it feels like the ingagement( or however you spell it) is off. Oh well if its her friends she want more and thats whats gonna satisfy her then i hope it does. i understand a realationship and hangin with new people can be a problem, but we just had a argument/resolvement on it or at least i thought so. its kool i aint the end of the world if its meant to be then thats what it is. I'll just live life one day at a time.
peace
peace