Ponderings
My birthday is in eleven days.
I don't think I will have a party. I will just celebrate in private, with Nathaniel and Yevgeny. Simply because they actually live with me. I don't feel like partying much. It's been only a bit over a month that Evan has died. It doesn't... it doesn't feel right yet to celebrate my birth that shortly after his death.
Dean's birthday is in four days. One week before mine. It's pretty sure I won't see him for that. Again. I will call, send him a gift... but it's not the same, you know? We never got to celebrate either of our birthdays together so far. Not last year, and it looks like this year we won't get to do that either.
In the end... I guess it's not so important. It's just another day in the year, aye? It's just another birthday. We all have them. Some get missed or ignored, some don't. Some feel like celebrating it... some don't.
Besides, I'll turn 28. Another step closer to thirty.
I don't think I will have a party. I will just celebrate in private, with Nathaniel and Yevgeny. Simply because they actually live with me. I don't feel like partying much. It's been only a bit over a month that Evan has died. It doesn't... it doesn't feel right yet to celebrate my birth that shortly after his death.
Dean's birthday is in four days. One week before mine. It's pretty sure I won't see him for that. Again. I will call, send him a gift... but it's not the same, you know? We never got to celebrate either of our birthdays together so far. Not last year, and it looks like this year we won't get to do that either.
In the end... I guess it's not so important. It's just another day in the year, aye? It's just another birthday. We all have them. Some get missed or ignored, some don't. Some feel like celebrating it... some don't.
Besides, I'll turn 28. Another step closer to thirty.