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I had my first class today. It was mostly an introductory thing. I am beginning to see the scale of the thing I'm taking on - it seems immense and difficult. Well...I am not here for a holiday, I suppose. I am here to WORK and SUFFER and look at OLD THINGS. (yyyyaaaayyyyyyyy!!!)
I've been planning this for quite a while. Yes. And now I am here.
I don't think I have ever wanted something and had it happen. Not on this scale, anyway. Everything else has been small scale, or expected, or not received. Because of this, I have been suffering bouts of feeling very disconnected and strange, as if it's not me living this thing at all.
I don't even know if it'll ever hit me that I'm here.
I've been planning this for quite a while. Yes. And now I am here.
I don't think I have ever wanted something and had it happen. Not on this scale, anyway. Everything else has been small scale, or expected, or not received. Because of this, I have been suffering bouts of feeling very disconnected and strange, as if it's not me living this thing at all.
I don't even know if it'll ever hit me that I'm here.