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ok... so today (techincally) will be my first day of college... im a little nervous and really excited... its a new page in my life and i get to start fresh (so to speak). i have three classes tomorrow which isnt bad... just i think math, english and chem. im not totally sure on that for a fact. but i know that my first class doesnt start til 11 and i have two and then i dont have class til 6 and that ends at 7:20.
i cant sleep. i dont know if its cause im excited about college of its because im worrying about ricky and myself. i think its a little bit of both but im not sure. i just get this sick feeling when i think about whats gunna happen to us in the future. im totally unsure about whats going on between us. i dont get to talk to him a lot and when i finally get him on the phone i talk to him for like 15 minutes. i love that kid so much. but thats just it hes a kid. oh god i shouldnt have said that. its just i dont know if he truely realizes what we have and how much i love and care for him. i guess i should tell him this but as i said before i dont get to talk to him a lot. i love him so much. sometimes it almost hurts.
i cant sleep. i dont know if its cause im excited about college of its because im worrying about ricky and myself. i think its a little bit of both but im not sure. i just get this sick feeling when i think about whats gunna happen to us in the future. im totally unsure about whats going on between us. i dont get to talk to him a lot and when i finally get him on the phone i talk to him for like 15 minutes. i love that kid so much. but thats just it hes a kid. oh god i shouldnt have said that. its just i dont know if he truely realizes what we have and how much i love and care for him. i guess i should tell him this but as i said before i dont get to talk to him a lot. i love him so much. sometimes it almost hurts.