One Day
Just some random mess that came to me today.
I know, I know~ I'm supposed to be working on an update for my on-going...
but this just.. hit me.. so I had to get it out before I lost it. x3
I don't think it's all that good, but, blah, I had to get it outta my system. XD
Hope you like it. ^-^
One Day
It was always something. A slap on the ass, a head in a lap, a pet on the head, holding of hands… it was always something. From the very beginning, YoSeob and DooJoon had been instructed to play out little things.
“The fans will love it!” management told them.
And management was proven right. But, JunHyung just couldn’t understand why, why, did they have to choose YoSeob to be all flirty with DooJoon? Why couldn’t they have picked someone besides his boyfriend to act as the leader’s toy?
Oh, right. Nobody knew about the couple, so JunHyung couldn’t very well announce his displeasure with the situation. That was a fact that irritated the rapper even more. And every time there was an interaction between the selected pair, JunHyung couldn’t help the thought of wanting to strangle their dear leader. Of course, that was until he reminded himself that DooJoon was completely unaware of the daggers he was helping shove ruthlessly through his band mate’s heart on a near daily basis. The sole fact that DooJoon was oblivious remained the only reason JunHyung could carry on being friends with the older man.
YoSeob and JunHyung had discussed it many a time, and always came to the same conclusion to not tell even the Beast members of their relationship. “It’s not their issue to have to cover up, so best not to burden them with it.”
But JunHyung couldn’t help the sinking feeling he got before every performance, every radio show and interview; he always knew that something would have to happen.
And before every appearance, YoSeob would notice the look in JunHyung’s eyes, though no one else did. Every single time, just before they’d set off, YoSeob would go up to JunHyung, take the rapper’s hands in his own, and look up at the older man with a pitiful gaze. And he’d whisper softly, “I’m sorry, Junnie.” And the blonde would head off with the rest, looking nearly as heartbroken as JunHyung felt.
But when the cameras started rolling, and the fans came filing in, nobody could have ever known the misery in their hearts. The smiles they wore were bright, YoSeob and DooJoon did their thing, and JunHyung forced out remarkably believable laughs and grins and did his best to focus on the other members as opposed to the one he wanted to.
And all the while, in order to keep himself from blowing up, JunHyung would remind himself that regardless of the act, YoSeob was his. JunHyung would be the one to kiss those lips that night; it would be JunHyung’s bed that YoSeob would creep in to after everyone was asleep; and it would be JunHyung’s name that YoSeob would voice so delicately, followed by the words “I love you” as the blonde would press sweet kisses into the rapper’s neck before settling down, cuddled into JunHyung’s body for a couple hours of blissful sleep before waking up to scramble back to his own bed just in time for the others to awake. And those thoughts are what kept the man sane.
And when YoSeob would have to do something, the precious ball of sunshine he was, would do his damndest to make it up to JunHyung. There was a day that YoSeob had posted a message on DooJoon’s page. The message read, “DooJoon-ah, I cherish you. You know that right?” Upset, JunHyung stormed off to his room after reading the message. Ready to break nearly anything in his path, JunHyung threw himself on his bed to prevent himself from doing anything rash. As his head hit the pillow, he heard a crinkling sound. Sitting up and turning himself over, JunHyung reached inside the pillowcase to pull out a piece of paper, decorated cutely with a drawing of what he could only assume to be himself and YoSeob, hearts floating around and all that cutesy kind of stuff YoSeob was so good for. Staring over the paper, JunHyung found the words, “Junnie-ah, I love you with all my heart. You know that right?” Immediately, JunHyung melted, and any feeling of anger he had disappeared. YoSeob just had a way of doing that for him, which made him fall even harder for the boy… if that was even possible.
But even still, as the days, weeks, months went by… as they went from one promotion to the next, it became harder and harder for the young rapper to hold everything inside. When he checked the internet, the fan sites and such, there were always cute little snapshots of YoSeob and DooJoon, staring sweetly into each others’ eyes, or playing with each others’ hair and so forth. For god sake, there were even entire fan clubs being made to support the pair and push for them to be “together”.
‘They’re so perfect for each other.’ ‘They’re too cute!’ ‘This pic is PROOF that they belong together!!’
It nearly made JunHyung sick to his stomach. And he would sigh. Why? Why did these girls all want to pair his lover up with someone else? What was wrong with them?
Management was right. These girls loved it… a little too much for JunHyung to handle.
---
“No Seobie, I’m not alright!” JunHyung snapped. “I want to be able to love you… publicly… like that!” He yelled, pointing to the recent interview that was streaming on his laptop, with a kind faced DooJoon fondly ruffling the blonde hair atop YoSeob’s head. “It’s not right!” He yelled some more, before noticing the terrified, apologetic look on YoSeob’s beautiful face. “It’s not… fair…” he added softly, voice breaking as tears drew in the corners of his eyes.
YoSeob let out a deep sigh as he walked over to his boyfriend. YoSeob had never seen JunHyung like this; and it hurt the younger male to see the love of his life obviously in so much pain. Gently, cautiously, YoSeob’s hand brushed gently against the side of JunHyung’s face, wiping away a tear that had managed to escape and run down the rapper’s face, despite how hard JunHyung was trying to hold it in.
As YoSeob stared up at the man he loved, the tough guy exterior completely broken by all of this, the younger couldn’t help the tears that came from the heartache he’d caused. Unlike JunHyung, YoSeob let them fall freely. “I’m sorry, Junnie. I’m so, so sorry!” he cried. The poor boy didn’t know what else to do. What could he do? It’s not like this was his idea to begin with. He was just a puppet, doing what he had to do in order to help their group. And it broke his heart to see the damage it was doing to the one person he cared most for. The now dirty blonde headed boy just kept repeating the words, “I love you, I’m sorry” over and over, sinking to the floor right there in the middle of the Beast living room, JunHyung standing over top of him now, watching the boy sob.
Guilt. There was nothing else this feeling could be. If it were even possible, JunHyung felt even worse now, seeing YoSeob scrunch himself up, hurt and bawling, and completely at a loss for what to do. And the sight before him was his own fault for blowing up. But goddamnit! What would you do if you had to watch the person you loved, the person who was supposed to love you, flirt around with someone else on a daily basis? Eventually, you’d snap too, right?
“My god, Seob…” he said, running his hands through his fairly new mohawk-styled hair, ready to pull it out, “don’t apologize to me.” JunHyung knelt down before the crying male, reaching out and pulling him into a tight embrace.
YoSeob flowed with JunHyung’s movements, letting himself be pulled effortlessly into JunHyung’s arms. He pressed his face into JunHyung’s chest and tried to stop his tears. “But, J-Junnie-“
JunHyung made a soft shushing noise as he held YoSeob tightly to his body, arms wrapped around him and a hand running through his love’s hair. “Don’t apologize to me. I’m sorry. It’s my fault. I’m sorry, Seob, I know you can’t help it.”
JunHyung moved the other slightly so that he could turn his face. The older male ran his hand alongside the soft skin of YoSeob’s cheek, feeling the wetness of his tears linger on his own flesh. Placing his fingers gently under the boy’s chin, JunHyung lifted his face and looked down into those glistening eyes.
God, even crying, YoSeob was so beautiful.
JunHyung closed the small distance between them, lightly pressing a sweet kiss to YoSeob’s lips. JunHyung relished in the moment, and YoSeob seemed to be happy with it as well, as they both moved in sync with each other. It wasn’t a hot or steamy kiss to lead to anything else, but it was full of the passion and love the two held for each other. And it was perfect that way.
---
The days passed, the boys caught up with their normal hectic schedule with their Shock promotions. YoSeob, as usual, did his bit with DooJoon. Yet, much to JunHyung’s surprise and happiness, YoSeob began to throw in little things with JunHyung as well. People just credited it to YoSeob being “cute” and “friendly” but JunHyung knew what was behind it. Not that he minded in the least. The smile’s he had so long faked in front of cameras were becoming real ones. And even though the interactions were limited, JunHyung knew YoSeob was trying his hardest, and JunHyung couldn’t have been happier.
JunHyung even saw that the people online were starting to pick up on their little touches and looks as well.
Maybe, one day… they’d be able to love each other in front of everyone.
---
The afternoon of March 25th was another Shock performance for the boys. They, as usual, worked hard, pulling off a flawless performance for the MNET show. It had been announced that BEAST was one of the final two, and the group came onstage, all of the members nearly trembling as they awaited the results of that week’s winner. The time passed so slowly…
"BEAST!"
The tears flowed, the boys rejoiced, they had finally won. All their hard work had finally provided them a number one spot. JunHyung, like most of his other members, was in tears of joy at the whole thing. He congratulated his band mates the best he could. Except YoSeob.
YoSeob, who was now whispering something into their leader’s ear. JunHyung just watched, and waited. Finally, YoSeob came bounding over to the rapper. JunHyung couldn’t believe YoSeob was the only one not completely soaked in tears. Go figure. JunHyung smiled at YoSeob, who was beaming with excitement. “We did it, Seob!”
And the rapper was taken back as the younger wrapped his arms completely around JunHyung. Immediately, JunHyung reciprocated the action, closing his more than willing arms around the smaller frame that was pressed against him. They stood there for what felt like forever as the music of their song played, none of them really able to sing it out of the pure emotion they were going through. JunHyung couldn’t care really, as he held his boyfriend there, and heard him say into his ear, “Junnie, I love you.”
“I love you too Seobie…”
And they let each other free to set about finishing up the show.
---
Click.
Click.
Click.
The next day, JunHyung and YoSeob were browsing through all the photos from their performance and win on MNET. They laughed and smiled and nearly teared up again as they looked through the pictures and read the captions and comments from fans.
Click.
...
“Oh…” JunHyung simply deadpanned.
Before him on that monitor was a picture of YoSeob's back, JunHyung's face resting in the crook of the boy's neck as they embraced each other tightly. And to boot, right off to the side was a smiling DooJoon standing in front of the lovers, obviously paying no attention to anything besides the cheering crowd.
This one had a most interesting comment as well. “JunHyung and YoSeob? Could it be?”
The follow up comment being, “Right behind DooJoon as well :o kekeke~”
And the comments just kept going. Some of them were angry that anyone could suggest YoSeob “cheating” on his beloved DooJoon. But, oddly enough, a lot of them consisted of “aww”s and “so cute”s. JunHyung, jaw dropped, just looked over at YoSeob. JunHyung arched an eyebrow as he took in the boy’s face. YoSeob was smiling brightly, his face positively shining as he stared at the screen.
“Seobie? Aren’t you worried about-?”
YoSeob cut him off. “Nope.” He looked to JunHyung, flashing him an even bigger grin.
JunHyung stared at him blankly.
“I meant for that picture to get taken, Junnie,” YoSeob laughed. “I will show my love for you, to everyone,” he continued happily, taking amusement in the expression on JunHyung’s face. “Slowly at first… but one day… one day we’ll be allowed to love each other, in front of everyone.” YoSeob nodded, agreeing with himself.
JunHyung nodded. And JunHyung felt like he could never love someone more.
One day…
//end.
I know, I know~ I'm supposed to be working on an update for my on-going...
but this just.. hit me.. so I had to get it out before I lost it. x3
I don't think it's all that good, but, blah, I had to get it outta my system. XD
Hope you like it. ^-^
One Day
It was always something. A slap on the ass, a head in a lap, a pet on the head, holding of hands… it was always something. From the very beginning, YoSeob and DooJoon had been instructed to play out little things.
“The fans will love it!” management told them.
And management was proven right. But, JunHyung just couldn’t understand why, why, did they have to choose YoSeob to be all flirty with DooJoon? Why couldn’t they have picked someone besides his boyfriend to act as the leader’s toy?
Oh, right. Nobody knew about the couple, so JunHyung couldn’t very well announce his displeasure with the situation. That was a fact that irritated the rapper even more. And every time there was an interaction between the selected pair, JunHyung couldn’t help the thought of wanting to strangle their dear leader. Of course, that was until he reminded himself that DooJoon was completely unaware of the daggers he was helping shove ruthlessly through his band mate’s heart on a near daily basis. The sole fact that DooJoon was oblivious remained the only reason JunHyung could carry on being friends with the older man.
YoSeob and JunHyung had discussed it many a time, and always came to the same conclusion to not tell even the Beast members of their relationship. “It’s not their issue to have to cover up, so best not to burden them with it.”
But JunHyung couldn’t help the sinking feeling he got before every performance, every radio show and interview; he always knew that something would have to happen.
And before every appearance, YoSeob would notice the look in JunHyung’s eyes, though no one else did. Every single time, just before they’d set off, YoSeob would go up to JunHyung, take the rapper’s hands in his own, and look up at the older man with a pitiful gaze. And he’d whisper softly, “I’m sorry, Junnie.” And the blonde would head off with the rest, looking nearly as heartbroken as JunHyung felt.
But when the cameras started rolling, and the fans came filing in, nobody could have ever known the misery in their hearts. The smiles they wore were bright, YoSeob and DooJoon did their thing, and JunHyung forced out remarkably believable laughs and grins and did his best to focus on the other members as opposed to the one he wanted to.
And all the while, in order to keep himself from blowing up, JunHyung would remind himself that regardless of the act, YoSeob was his. JunHyung would be the one to kiss those lips that night; it would be JunHyung’s bed that YoSeob would creep in to after everyone was asleep; and it would be JunHyung’s name that YoSeob would voice so delicately, followed by the words “I love you” as the blonde would press sweet kisses into the rapper’s neck before settling down, cuddled into JunHyung’s body for a couple hours of blissful sleep before waking up to scramble back to his own bed just in time for the others to awake. And those thoughts are what kept the man sane.
And when YoSeob would have to do something, the precious ball of sunshine he was, would do his damndest to make it up to JunHyung. There was a day that YoSeob had posted a message on DooJoon’s page. The message read, “DooJoon-ah, I cherish you. You know that right?” Upset, JunHyung stormed off to his room after reading the message. Ready to break nearly anything in his path, JunHyung threw himself on his bed to prevent himself from doing anything rash. As his head hit the pillow, he heard a crinkling sound. Sitting up and turning himself over, JunHyung reached inside the pillowcase to pull out a piece of paper, decorated cutely with a drawing of what he could only assume to be himself and YoSeob, hearts floating around and all that cutesy kind of stuff YoSeob was so good for. Staring over the paper, JunHyung found the words, “Junnie-ah, I love you with all my heart. You know that right?” Immediately, JunHyung melted, and any feeling of anger he had disappeared. YoSeob just had a way of doing that for him, which made him fall even harder for the boy… if that was even possible.
But even still, as the days, weeks, months went by… as they went from one promotion to the next, it became harder and harder for the young rapper to hold everything inside. When he checked the internet, the fan sites and such, there were always cute little snapshots of YoSeob and DooJoon, staring sweetly into each others’ eyes, or playing with each others’ hair and so forth. For god sake, there were even entire fan clubs being made to support the pair and push for them to be “together”.
‘They’re so perfect for each other.’ ‘They’re too cute!’ ‘This pic is PROOF that they belong together!!’
It nearly made JunHyung sick to his stomach. And he would sigh. Why? Why did these girls all want to pair his lover up with someone else? What was wrong with them?
Management was right. These girls loved it… a little too much for JunHyung to handle.
---
“No Seobie, I’m not alright!” JunHyung snapped. “I want to be able to love you… publicly… like that!” He yelled, pointing to the recent interview that was streaming on his laptop, with a kind faced DooJoon fondly ruffling the blonde hair atop YoSeob’s head. “It’s not right!” He yelled some more, before noticing the terrified, apologetic look on YoSeob’s beautiful face. “It’s not… fair…” he added softly, voice breaking as tears drew in the corners of his eyes.
YoSeob let out a deep sigh as he walked over to his boyfriend. YoSeob had never seen JunHyung like this; and it hurt the younger male to see the love of his life obviously in so much pain. Gently, cautiously, YoSeob’s hand brushed gently against the side of JunHyung’s face, wiping away a tear that had managed to escape and run down the rapper’s face, despite how hard JunHyung was trying to hold it in.
As YoSeob stared up at the man he loved, the tough guy exterior completely broken by all of this, the younger couldn’t help the tears that came from the heartache he’d caused. Unlike JunHyung, YoSeob let them fall freely. “I’m sorry, Junnie. I’m so, so sorry!” he cried. The poor boy didn’t know what else to do. What could he do? It’s not like this was his idea to begin with. He was just a puppet, doing what he had to do in order to help their group. And it broke his heart to see the damage it was doing to the one person he cared most for. The now dirty blonde headed boy just kept repeating the words, “I love you, I’m sorry” over and over, sinking to the floor right there in the middle of the Beast living room, JunHyung standing over top of him now, watching the boy sob.
Guilt. There was nothing else this feeling could be. If it were even possible, JunHyung felt even worse now, seeing YoSeob scrunch himself up, hurt and bawling, and completely at a loss for what to do. And the sight before him was his own fault for blowing up. But goddamnit! What would you do if you had to watch the person you loved, the person who was supposed to love you, flirt around with someone else on a daily basis? Eventually, you’d snap too, right?
“My god, Seob…” he said, running his hands through his fairly new mohawk-styled hair, ready to pull it out, “don’t apologize to me.” JunHyung knelt down before the crying male, reaching out and pulling him into a tight embrace.
YoSeob flowed with JunHyung’s movements, letting himself be pulled effortlessly into JunHyung’s arms. He pressed his face into JunHyung’s chest and tried to stop his tears. “But, J-Junnie-“
JunHyung made a soft shushing noise as he held YoSeob tightly to his body, arms wrapped around him and a hand running through his love’s hair. “Don’t apologize to me. I’m sorry. It’s my fault. I’m sorry, Seob, I know you can’t help it.”
JunHyung moved the other slightly so that he could turn his face. The older male ran his hand alongside the soft skin of YoSeob’s cheek, feeling the wetness of his tears linger on his own flesh. Placing his fingers gently under the boy’s chin, JunHyung lifted his face and looked down into those glistening eyes.
God, even crying, YoSeob was so beautiful.
JunHyung closed the small distance between them, lightly pressing a sweet kiss to YoSeob’s lips. JunHyung relished in the moment, and YoSeob seemed to be happy with it as well, as they both moved in sync with each other. It wasn’t a hot or steamy kiss to lead to anything else, but it was full of the passion and love the two held for each other. And it was perfect that way.
---
The days passed, the boys caught up with their normal hectic schedule with their Shock promotions. YoSeob, as usual, did his bit with DooJoon. Yet, much to JunHyung’s surprise and happiness, YoSeob began to throw in little things with JunHyung as well. People just credited it to YoSeob being “cute” and “friendly” but JunHyung knew what was behind it. Not that he minded in the least. The smile’s he had so long faked in front of cameras were becoming real ones. And even though the interactions were limited, JunHyung knew YoSeob was trying his hardest, and JunHyung couldn’t have been happier.
JunHyung even saw that the people online were starting to pick up on their little touches and looks as well.
Maybe, one day… they’d be able to love each other in front of everyone.
---
The afternoon of March 25th was another Shock performance for the boys. They, as usual, worked hard, pulling off a flawless performance for the MNET show. It had been announced that BEAST was one of the final two, and the group came onstage, all of the members nearly trembling as they awaited the results of that week’s winner. The time passed so slowly…
"BEAST!"
The tears flowed, the boys rejoiced, they had finally won. All their hard work had finally provided them a number one spot. JunHyung, like most of his other members, was in tears of joy at the whole thing. He congratulated his band mates the best he could. Except YoSeob.
YoSeob, who was now whispering something into their leader’s ear. JunHyung just watched, and waited. Finally, YoSeob came bounding over to the rapper. JunHyung couldn’t believe YoSeob was the only one not completely soaked in tears. Go figure. JunHyung smiled at YoSeob, who was beaming with excitement. “We did it, Seob!”
And the rapper was taken back as the younger wrapped his arms completely around JunHyung. Immediately, JunHyung reciprocated the action, closing his more than willing arms around the smaller frame that was pressed against him. They stood there for what felt like forever as the music of their song played, none of them really able to sing it out of the pure emotion they were going through. JunHyung couldn’t care really, as he held his boyfriend there, and heard him say into his ear, “Junnie, I love you.”
“I love you too Seobie…”
And they let each other free to set about finishing up the show.
---
Click.
Click.
Click.
The next day, JunHyung and YoSeob were browsing through all the photos from their performance and win on MNET. They laughed and smiled and nearly teared up again as they looked through the pictures and read the captions and comments from fans.
Click.
...
“Oh…” JunHyung simply deadpanned.
Before him on that monitor was a picture of YoSeob's back, JunHyung's face resting in the crook of the boy's neck as they embraced each other tightly. And to boot, right off to the side was a smiling DooJoon standing in front of the lovers, obviously paying no attention to anything besides the cheering crowd.
This one had a most interesting comment as well. “JunHyung and YoSeob? Could it be?”
The follow up comment being, “Right behind DooJoon as well :o kekeke~”
And the comments just kept going. Some of them were angry that anyone could suggest YoSeob “cheating” on his beloved DooJoon. But, oddly enough, a lot of them consisted of “aww”s and “so cute”s. JunHyung, jaw dropped, just looked over at YoSeob. JunHyung arched an eyebrow as he took in the boy’s face. YoSeob was smiling brightly, his face positively shining as he stared at the screen.
“Seobie? Aren’t you worried about-?”
YoSeob cut him off. “Nope.” He looked to JunHyung, flashing him an even bigger grin.
JunHyung stared at him blankly.
“I meant for that picture to get taken, Junnie,” YoSeob laughed. “I will show my love for you, to everyone,” he continued happily, taking amusement in the expression on JunHyung’s face. “Slowly at first… but one day… one day we’ll be allowed to love each other, in front of everyone.” YoSeob nodded, agreeing with himself.
JunHyung nodded. And JunHyung felt like he could never love someone more.
One day…
//end.