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I don't even know what to write.
I feel like I should write something, and get it off my mind, but still, I can't.. not one bit, so this is literally me freeform typing whatever pops into my head.
I realized today that I really don't care about anything anymore... especially not myself. I don't want to leave the house. I don't want to be awake. I can't even get up the damned stones to compose today. Nothing really interests me these days. I play a shit-ton of video games because at least they beat sitting around staring at a wall. I like going outside sometimes... but not really recently. I want to hide. I don't really want do do anything, eat anything... live. I don't want to DIE, but I don't really care about anything. Somewhere in between I guess. Unlife, like a vampire or something.
I need new glasses
I guess I'm depressed. I shouldn't have anything to be depressed about.. I should be over Bones. I should be having fun, not worrying. Caring about something
Fuck, I don't know. Maybe I'm not supposed to be anything but me. Duh. Maybe I'll never be over Bones. Maybe she's just that person that ruins everybody else for you, ya know? I've thought about calling her... I said I would like 2 weeks ago... but I just can't get up the courage/motivation/desire.
I don't know
and I don't really care.
somebody give me some inspiration. I'm weak.
I feel like I should write something, and get it off my mind, but still, I can't.. not one bit, so this is literally me freeform typing whatever pops into my head.
I realized today that I really don't care about anything anymore... especially not myself. I don't want to leave the house. I don't want to be awake. I can't even get up the damned stones to compose today. Nothing really interests me these days. I play a shit-ton of video games because at least they beat sitting around staring at a wall. I like going outside sometimes... but not really recently. I want to hide. I don't really want do do anything, eat anything... live. I don't want to DIE, but I don't really care about anything. Somewhere in between I guess. Unlife, like a vampire or something.
I need new glasses
I guess I'm depressed. I shouldn't have anything to be depressed about.. I should be over Bones. I should be having fun, not worrying. Caring about something
Fuck, I don't know. Maybe I'm not supposed to be anything but me. Duh. Maybe I'll never be over Bones. Maybe she's just that person that ruins everybody else for you, ya know? I've thought about calling her... I said I would like 2 weeks ago... but I just can't get up the courage/motivation/desire.
I don't know
and I don't really care.
somebody give me some inspiration. I'm weak.