Love never wanted me

[join_n_death]

well im done with this journal and everything it involves, I'm done with your friends and I'm done with you. I dont know why i always refer to you as well YOU in my journals... I dont know why I was so scared to write down your name, maybe I was scared If I wrote it down you hand even more power over me and You'd never let me go, maybe I just was to hurt to blame it on your name, to ruin what a great person you were... well scrath that one you've turned into this non-living thing plus on top of that your now the biggest asshole ever... I saw it when you started to change but I never thought you would be totally lost... and now your gone gone for ever and guess what good for you, if drugs make you that fucking happy then go the fuck ahead I hope it was worth you fucking everything you had up for. I hope one day you end up in jail and you'll see what you have become and I will wonder for the rest of my life if you'll be ok cause no matter how much I hate you and trust me I do right now, I still love you because you'll always be my scottie... my friend. I wish the best for you and whom ever ou pick for your life. I wish the happiest of moments and the love you took away. I wish you could see how much you hurt me so You can see the damage you can do. I wish you could still talk to me, even if it was about another girl, cuz no matter how you break my heart I'm always gonna care. And even though you dont read this, I know someday someone will tell you everything and I hope when that day comes you'll finally miss me and wonder what I'm worth... wonder if I ever made it...wonder who I'm with... wonder what I'm doing... wonder if I still think about you. And to tell you know If by chance we do cross paths again someday I'll smile and wave and give you that one last kiss on the cheek and wonder where the time went... and I hope when that day comes I no longer miss you.

Dont worry we will meet again.. when both our cars collide...

this is the last of it the very very last of it...

im sorry but If your not going to be there as a real friend then I dont want you around....