Twisted
Ever get the feeling you are not living your own life? I do too! So, here i am, struggling for nothing. From the mouth of a good friend "you are trying too hard" and another friend said "you fall too easily" i think those two phrases sum up my current life in certain ways. While i do not think i try TOO hard i do try more than i should. I realize that i act on the basis of the best thing ever and i shouldn't be so declaring of the worth of my goal. As for falling too easily, I also do not believe this ALL the way. I do think i find too easily, but as for falling, i have only fallen for 3 girls in my life. Maybe i jump quicker than most people, but i have never regretted it, so it is hard to accept the statement as pure truth, all though i see its relationship to my life. I guess my heart and instinct just allow me to figure out who and how much i like faster than most people. As dangerous as it may be i do like it because the feeling is so intense and happy and that is worth the pain (all though during the pain it may not seem that way).
I can feel my mind starting to pull me out of the mud these last few days. I think being sick and having a lot of time to reflect on things has given my sub-conscious mind a slight nudge. In turn, i have started to feel exceedingly better about my life. I think my problem is that i think on things too much instead of letting them reveal themselves over time. I will eventually figure it all out in the end, unless i want to spend most of my life being miserable and lame.
Ok, so back to work with me. If anyone wants to see movies please tell me as i never have people who want to go. Thanks for being there for me guys and girls :)
I can feel my mind starting to pull me out of the mud these last few days. I think being sick and having a lot of time to reflect on things has given my sub-conscious mind a slight nudge. In turn, i have started to feel exceedingly better about my life. I think my problem is that i think on things too much instead of letting them reveal themselves over time. I will eventually figure it all out in the end, unless i want to spend most of my life being miserable and lame.
Ok, so back to work with me. If anyone wants to see movies please tell me as i never have people who want to go. Thanks for being there for me guys and girls :)