caught the movie on hbo last night whilst i waited for sleep to come. sleep never came. tears came instead, rolled down my cheeks and straight to my heart.

i miss you, ma. i miss you so much. so many things i never said, never did. i'm choking with regret.

jennina, 10. rap, 9. lei, 7. joey_mj, 27 ( Read more... )

it's now exactly a year when I prayed for two things I'm not sure I want and got them:
that He takes away your pain for good, and that I don't get to see it when it happens.

i miss you, ma. every single day since. every single day ever.

watched err listened to mariah from outside the concert grounds. it was jennina's birthday and she wanted to hear mariah sing. it's way too late to get tickets so we trooped to the open fields, parked cielo, and sat on the grass listening to the tired diva whimper ( Read more... )

putangina! i have never met a couple more pathetic than you guys. fucking cowards!

my little boy electric blue turned 7 yesterday. he was happy to have a party, happy to see his dad, happy to receive yet another dinosaur toy set. best of all, he was happy to pose between his warring parents for a "family" picture that will probably be the only one he'll ever have ( Read more... )

just came from a meeting with a pompous principal. too bad we went to the same college. we talked headcount reduction - 8 people will have no job in 3 month's time. nothing new. time's are tough and the worst is yet to come. the pompous principal is just one of the many who has already asked for reorg options. my planning guys are working 16/ ( Read more... )

2 new years, mom’s demise, near the end of the new yorker’s 2-week visit, and lots of 12++ celebrations later, here i am, a changed spirit essentially. or so i hope. i regret not writing down significant self-realizations when they came to me, but all is not lost. i have them in my heart ( Read more... )

bought myself a wonderful christmas gift yesterday - a pair of dark brown, suede stilettos from manel's executive footwear. it's so elegant ( Read more... )

i keep figuring in a thomas crown affair ending. again and again and again ( Read more... )