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For the first time in 4 years i have 0 credit card debt.
And I think I have found what i've been looking for. I have a nasty habit of dressing things up into what i want them to be, which has caused me an incredible amount of grief in the past. Its a funny thing... you're never too sure if you don't have it, but you are 1000% certain when you do...which also makes no sense. Anyway, I've felt alive these past few days, a way i have not felt in about 3 years. It gives me hope, security, confidence... everything. This time is different, I'm ready for it now. I have my big-boy pants on and i can do anything i used to dream of doing. This feels surreal, or rather my life does feel real again. I miss things that havent even happened yet.
Maybe this one will stick around long enough to see life through my eyes, see how amazing it can be
And I think I have found what i've been looking for. I have a nasty habit of dressing things up into what i want them to be, which has caused me an incredible amount of grief in the past. Its a funny thing... you're never too sure if you don't have it, but you are 1000% certain when you do...which also makes no sense. Anyway, I've felt alive these past few days, a way i have not felt in about 3 years. It gives me hope, security, confidence... everything. This time is different, I'm ready for it now. I have my big-boy pants on and i can do anything i used to dream of doing. This feels surreal, or rather my life does feel real again. I miss things that havent even happened yet.
Maybe this one will stick around long enough to see life through my eyes, see how amazing it can be