Untitled....Again....
What you are about to read is the result of a thoughtful Joel. A Joel that has had absolutely nothing to do all day but sit and think about his current situation. A Joel that is at a cross-roads of sorts. This will not be in the normal realm of what you have all come to expect from a "Glosis" post. I have a million things running through my mind and couldn't really think of a better way to deal and/or sort them than by expressing them in a public forum (that and anyone who actually reads this would, no doubt, be subject to hearing all of these things at one point or another and this is a hell of a way to save time). So let's dive into my scattered mind....
Thermo King and I have parted ways. By normal standards this would be cause for excessive drinking and cries of rejoice. Not tonite. As much as I bitched about that place and completely loathed going to Redford eveyday for next to nothing pay wise, I enjoyed it. As with any normal j-o-b there were some shitty things (and people) that I had to deal with, but I took it all in stride. The thing I enjoyed the most, and consequently will miss the most, were the guys on my shift. I couldn't ask for a better group of guys to work with in a place like T.K. The relationship I built, virtually from the ground up, with my Uncle Pauly(the guy told me he "fisted" some girl back in his "hay-day". That's how close we got. Nobody just tells other people, let alone family, that kind of shit). The fact that I got to take part in my father's "extended family" and otherwise become part of that "extended family". The fact that I got through to one of the gruffest S-O-B's this side of Mars and then have him invite me to his house for some brew's(let me break this down for the ladies- there are some things, when it comes to guys, that are scared. One is an invite to the digs. The other is sharing YOUR beer. Obviously I was humbled.) Granted there are other things I will miss, which brings me to my next topic...
Is it possible to fall for two women at once? (I may end up in a world of regret even adding this to my post, but I will face that when and if it comes up) What one lacks, the other...well, doesn't seem to lack a fucking thing. I talk to both on a daily basis. I am completely infatuated with one while the other, the "steam" comes and goes purely on my end. I am at a loss for words(which doesn't happen often) when it comes describing the feelings for one, while the other I can give you an answer. I have never had anybody compliment my personality as much as one, yet the other seemed a bit the opposite. I am, in no way, playing down either of these women. I am, however, being as honest I can possibly be. Any type of "future" with either lady is a possibility. The only thing that worries me is my complete lack of relationship experience. I could only hope that I could be everything they hoped for. This type of worry is new to me and I deal with it the best way I know how...roll with it, see what happens. I wish Russ knew how much of his advice I actually have listened to.
School or Work? I got a phone call today with a guarantee of a job. The only problem. 9pm-6am. In Detroit. I'm sure it will pay nicely considering two of my references, and the job itself. The thought is, do I skip the EMT training and just hit the college circuit in the winter(the EMT thing was to get a head start on the Nursing training) or do I miss out on this opportunity and forge on as planned? Should I just not go to New Orleans and take this gig to make that dollar? For those of you who don't know...My EMT class got pushed back to 10/10 and I was thinking of getting up with the American Red Cross and going to help in relief efforts. Should I just be happy with my $40 donation? The thing is I FUCKING hate the thought of unemployment. Hell, it's only been one day and already I am going stir crazy. I NEED to earn a pay check as oppose to just getting cash.
All this all day.....I've been sitting around with these things on my mind. NOT in that particular order. I honestly say that I feel a bit better about it now that it's "off my chest" so-to-speak. Any comments are welcome, prayers too, that is if you are into that sort of thing.
Thermo King and I have parted ways. By normal standards this would be cause for excessive drinking and cries of rejoice. Not tonite. As much as I bitched about that place and completely loathed going to Redford eveyday for next to nothing pay wise, I enjoyed it. As with any normal j-o-b there were some shitty things (and people) that I had to deal with, but I took it all in stride. The thing I enjoyed the most, and consequently will miss the most, were the guys on my shift. I couldn't ask for a better group of guys to work with in a place like T.K. The relationship I built, virtually from the ground up, with my Uncle Pauly(the guy told me he "fisted" some girl back in his "hay-day". That's how close we got. Nobody just tells other people, let alone family, that kind of shit). The fact that I got to take part in my father's "extended family" and otherwise become part of that "extended family". The fact that I got through to one of the gruffest S-O-B's this side of Mars and then have him invite me to his house for some brew's(let me break this down for the ladies- there are some things, when it comes to guys, that are scared. One is an invite to the digs. The other is sharing YOUR beer. Obviously I was humbled.) Granted there are other things I will miss, which brings me to my next topic...
Is it possible to fall for two women at once? (I may end up in a world of regret even adding this to my post, but I will face that when and if it comes up) What one lacks, the other...well, doesn't seem to lack a fucking thing. I talk to both on a daily basis. I am completely infatuated with one while the other, the "steam" comes and goes purely on my end. I am at a loss for words(which doesn't happen often) when it comes describing the feelings for one, while the other I can give you an answer. I have never had anybody compliment my personality as much as one, yet the other seemed a bit the opposite. I am, in no way, playing down either of these women. I am, however, being as honest I can possibly be. Any type of "future" with either lady is a possibility. The only thing that worries me is my complete lack of relationship experience. I could only hope that I could be everything they hoped for. This type of worry is new to me and I deal with it the best way I know how...roll with it, see what happens. I wish Russ knew how much of his advice I actually have listened to.
School or Work? I got a phone call today with a guarantee of a job. The only problem. 9pm-6am. In Detroit. I'm sure it will pay nicely considering two of my references, and the job itself. The thought is, do I skip the EMT training and just hit the college circuit in the winter(the EMT thing was to get a head start on the Nursing training) or do I miss out on this opportunity and forge on as planned? Should I just not go to New Orleans and take this gig to make that dollar? For those of you who don't know...My EMT class got pushed back to 10/10 and I was thinking of getting up with the American Red Cross and going to help in relief efforts. Should I just be happy with my $40 donation? The thing is I FUCKING hate the thought of unemployment. Hell, it's only been one day and already I am going stir crazy. I NEED to earn a pay check as oppose to just getting cash.
All this all day.....I've been sitting around with these things on my mind. NOT in that particular order. I honestly say that I feel a bit better about it now that it's "off my chest" so-to-speak. Any comments are welcome, prayers too, that is if you are into that sort of thing.