I better learn "no" fast!
So, Grace, the lady that initially shanghaied me into helping out with the rummage sale, sits down in front of me at church this morning and says, "So, do you want to chair the rummage sale next year?" I blinked and laughed at her. Then I said, "Wait, you're serious!?!" "Yup." Oh, boy. I told her, honestly, that I wasn't sure simply because I hadn't been there from the start and I really didn't know HOW things had been organized prior to it, etc. Apparently, all three ladies are tired of doing it (and it's a lot of physical work), and this year was going to be the last. But, they did make a decent amount of money ($1600+, although they've had $2k+ in the past), so they'll continue it if I organize it. I'm feeling ovewhelmed at the thought, though. I definitely would need help and if at least one or two of the women who've done it in the past doesn't want to help, I'm not likely to do it all myself.
The other concern is something my mother voiced, "But when you get a car in September, you're going back to work full time! You can't do it!" Umm....no, Mom, probably not. I mean, probably not going back to work full time. I'm not sure what I want to do exactly, but I'm not sure I want to work full time out of the house. I'd rather work part time a few days or contract a few weeks/months at a time with a break in between. Every time I see my family, my mother & my sister get on my case about working out of the house. Yes, we could really use the money. More editing work could solve that problem, too, though, and save my energy so that I could get stuff done around the house, too. To this day, I don't think my mother understands that the spoon theory APPLIES TO ME. I have a ton more energy than I used to have, and I certainly want to take advantage of that. At the same time, I've grown to enjoy not stressing over things like cooking dinner regularly and generally keeping the house organized & clean, and if I don't have enough spoons, those are items that will have to go. I know I can work outside the house on a regular basis. What I'm not sure is if I can do it endlessly and/or ALSO do all the things I want to do both with my own little family and with the church family. I don't want to burn myself out or cause a major flare. I know what those felt like and I'd rather have a more limited slate of activities than get into a cycle of heavy activities and crashes. For the same reason, though, I don't want to be the sole person in charge of any major project like this, because I sitll have bad days. I'm a lot, lot better at pushing though them when need be, and I actually havne't really had a day I absolutely couldn't do something that needed doing.
Also, I LIKE having my own business. I'd like to bring in more money and more clients, but I really enjoy being my own boss. I think that it could be useful to add some part time hours out of the house for the steady cash, but I'm not sure I want to do more than that.
As for church, I've now been volunteered for the rummage sale, to join the choir, to help run the youth group, and I HAD been thinking about becoming a lay reader in the fall (except their lay readers are also Eucharistic ministers, and I've never been comfortable with that role for myself). I know I wanted an active church, but wow. And I haven't even been formally Received yet! Sheesh.
And mostly OT: Listening to the choir director/organist play the piano today is really making me itch to get back to practicing.
The other concern is something my mother voiced, "But when you get a car in September, you're going back to work full time! You can't do it!" Umm....no, Mom, probably not. I mean, probably not going back to work full time. I'm not sure what I want to do exactly, but I'm not sure I want to work full time out of the house. I'd rather work part time a few days or contract a few weeks/months at a time with a break in between. Every time I see my family, my mother & my sister get on my case about working out of the house. Yes, we could really use the money. More editing work could solve that problem, too, though, and save my energy so that I could get stuff done around the house, too. To this day, I don't think my mother understands that the spoon theory APPLIES TO ME. I have a ton more energy than I used to have, and I certainly want to take advantage of that. At the same time, I've grown to enjoy not stressing over things like cooking dinner regularly and generally keeping the house organized & clean, and if I don't have enough spoons, those are items that will have to go. I know I can work outside the house on a regular basis. What I'm not sure is if I can do it endlessly and/or ALSO do all the things I want to do both with my own little family and with the church family. I don't want to burn myself out or cause a major flare. I know what those felt like and I'd rather have a more limited slate of activities than get into a cycle of heavy activities and crashes. For the same reason, though, I don't want to be the sole person in charge of any major project like this, because I sitll have bad days. I'm a lot, lot better at pushing though them when need be, and I actually havne't really had a day I absolutely couldn't do something that needed doing.
Also, I LIKE having my own business. I'd like to bring in more money and more clients, but I really enjoy being my own boss. I think that it could be useful to add some part time hours out of the house for the steady cash, but I'm not sure I want to do more than that.
As for church, I've now been volunteered for the rummage sale, to join the choir, to help run the youth group, and I HAD been thinking about becoming a lay reader in the fall (except their lay readers are also Eucharistic ministers, and I've never been comfortable with that role for myself). I know I wanted an active church, but wow. And I haven't even been formally Received yet! Sheesh.
And mostly OT: Listening to the choir director/organist play the piano today is really making me itch to get back to practicing.