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So wow. I've been on a bit of a hiatus.
Prom was great. Made my Junior year disaster seem almost like it never even happened.
So in Econ, we have to do this project, where you and a partner get "married" and basically simulate the personal finance and other struggles of a married couple. My "husband" is the guy who I finally thought I was over. The guy who was the one who ruined my Junior prom. The one who is love with a girl a bazillion times more attractive than I am (even though he knows nothing is ever going to come from it). This project is forcing us to spend time together, and its killing me because every extra minute I spend with him makes me like him a little bit more. Next year we are going to the same school and I am going to watch him go and find some girl to date, or fall in love with, or whatever you call it, and I'm going to be sitting here watching and wishing it was me. He isn't anything spectacular. He isn't your tall, dark and handsome type. He actually is a shorter kid with a rather large nose everyone likes to tease him about. He was in marching band with me which is kind of lame actually. He doesn't have great grades. He forgets how to be compassionate sometimes. He carelessly spends money on hockey jerseys (not that thats necessarily a bad thing). But for some reason none of that really matters to me. I know eventually he is going to go and do something that makes me angry, and change my feelings just like he did with the Prom fiasco, but all in all, those changes in feeling are temporary. I wish they wouldn't be.
Pens lost tonight 4-3 againt Montreal.
PLEASE Pens, please pull out a win.
If the season ends, I might fall into depression.
Graduation is in a month from tomorrow.
Yay?
I'm going to bed. Goodnight, and as always Go Pens