And so I have to say before I go that I just want you to know...
It's been awhile and I know, I've been so lazy with this and I have so much time to write...I dunno what the deal is either lol...
So let's see what's new...
The gig at Heaven is going good so far...Every other Saturday isn't so bad for now...and things with Eddie (the owner of Club One) are moving along, so hopefully soon I'll have some news about that. A staff meeting is in the works...
One of my goals is to get to play in the Chapel Room at Limelight...I haven't figured out how I'm going to do that yet, but it will happen. I'm determined.
My new favorite movie as of recently is Shrek 2. It's SO funny and SO well written. Besides, with Antonio Banderas as Puss In Boots and Jennifer Saunders (Edina from Ab Fab to you) as the Fairy Godmother, you can't really go wrong...
NYC Pride is coming up soon next month and it seems that everyone is starting to get in gear for it. I just don't get as excited as I used to about it...It's not that I'm not proud but it's just one big cruising fest, at least that's how it seems to me anyway, but oh well... I guess it is fun nonetheless. It's just a shame that you can only get the community together for one day out of the year. I'm going to research some volunteer groups and see if I can do my part in all of this. I figure why not? Sometimes it's nice to be surrounded by positive people who want to make a difference...or at least help out in some way...
"You know I can't apologize for everything I know
And you don't have to agree with me
But once you get me going you better just let me go
I mean we have to be able to criticize what we love
Say what we have to say
If you're not trying to make something better
Then as far as I can tell you are just in the way..."
- Ani DiFranco "What If No One's Watching"
Plans are in the works to hopefully get myself out to Palm Springs sometime in August to see my friend Tristan. I really hope that that pans out because I could use a vacation from NYC. I've been going to the lesbian bars alot more lately just cause I'm sick of seeing the same people all the time... I'm actually supposed to go to Meow Mix, but I dunno if that's definitely gonna happen tonight or not. Depends on how lazy I'm feeling...
I did meet a boy last night...Joe. He's my friend Jessica's friend Chrissy's cousin. Did you get that? lol
Well, we all hung out in a group and he told Chrissy who told Jessica who told me (ugh lol) that he really liked me and wanted to hang out again... Is it wrong to be so over the whole thing? I've really gotten quite used to the single life and I'm enjoying it alot more than I ever did...
I'd rather be happy alone that unhappy with someone...I know so many people who are in that situation and it's just a waste.
There's a line from the show "I Love You. You're Perfect. Now Change" where one of the characters sings about being "always a bridesmaid, never a bride" and she says "I've lived life alone but the terms are my own" and it's true. I love it.
In almost every relationship I've had to deal with SOMEthing...No matter how big or small the thing, there's always been some kind of glitch that throws a monkey wrench into the relationship. And I think next time around I'm gonna hold out and not get involved in that kinda stuff. Yes, relationships are a compromise and no relationship is perfect...but I think for the time being I'm good on my own until I find something that comes close to being exactly what I want.
"Before you love me
There's something that your heart should know
If you want me
It's body, sex, mind and soul
I want it all..."
- Alsou "Before You Love Me"
I'm not too proud to compromise and neither should the person I date. Yet the guys I date don't seem to get that and most just have this holier than thou "this is the way I am" kinda attitude and I'm supposed to just "deal with it" and keep going.
No. I don't think so. Those days are through. I'm 24 years old now and if I'm going to play this game, I'm playing for keeps, not a passing phase. Nor do I want to have to "deal with something" that's going to keep on popping up as time goes by... That's not fair to either of the people involved.
And yeah, I know I have alot to offer and when I find someone who's worth it, I'll give it to them, but as of now, there are options but none of them seem viable.
I'm rambling, Sorry...Just thought I'd throw that out there...
Other than that there's not really a ton that's been going on. I have a flat tire again. That sucks. I have no luck with cars, but I guess it could be worse...
I started going tanning again which is fun...it's the most peaceful 10 min of my day...
At any rate, the weather is getting nicer and things will kick into high gear! I have high hopes for the summer of 2004! You should too! Everyone deserves a little happy now and then!
Till Then,
John
So let's see what's new...
The gig at Heaven is going good so far...Every other Saturday isn't so bad for now...and things with Eddie (the owner of Club One) are moving along, so hopefully soon I'll have some news about that. A staff meeting is in the works...
One of my goals is to get to play in the Chapel Room at Limelight...I haven't figured out how I'm going to do that yet, but it will happen. I'm determined.
My new favorite movie as of recently is Shrek 2. It's SO funny and SO well written. Besides, with Antonio Banderas as Puss In Boots and Jennifer Saunders (Edina from Ab Fab to you) as the Fairy Godmother, you can't really go wrong...
NYC Pride is coming up soon next month and it seems that everyone is starting to get in gear for it. I just don't get as excited as I used to about it...It's not that I'm not proud but it's just one big cruising fest, at least that's how it seems to me anyway, but oh well... I guess it is fun nonetheless. It's just a shame that you can only get the community together for one day out of the year. I'm going to research some volunteer groups and see if I can do my part in all of this. I figure why not? Sometimes it's nice to be surrounded by positive people who want to make a difference...or at least help out in some way...
"You know I can't apologize for everything I know
And you don't have to agree with me
But once you get me going you better just let me go
I mean we have to be able to criticize what we love
Say what we have to say
If you're not trying to make something better
Then as far as I can tell you are just in the way..."
- Ani DiFranco "What If No One's Watching"
Plans are in the works to hopefully get myself out to Palm Springs sometime in August to see my friend Tristan. I really hope that that pans out because I could use a vacation from NYC. I've been going to the lesbian bars alot more lately just cause I'm sick of seeing the same people all the time... I'm actually supposed to go to Meow Mix, but I dunno if that's definitely gonna happen tonight or not. Depends on how lazy I'm feeling...
I did meet a boy last night...Joe. He's my friend Jessica's friend Chrissy's cousin. Did you get that? lol
Well, we all hung out in a group and he told Chrissy who told Jessica who told me (ugh lol) that he really liked me and wanted to hang out again... Is it wrong to be so over the whole thing? I've really gotten quite used to the single life and I'm enjoying it alot more than I ever did...
I'd rather be happy alone that unhappy with someone...I know so many people who are in that situation and it's just a waste.
There's a line from the show "I Love You. You're Perfect. Now Change" where one of the characters sings about being "always a bridesmaid, never a bride" and she says "I've lived life alone but the terms are my own" and it's true. I love it.
In almost every relationship I've had to deal with SOMEthing...No matter how big or small the thing, there's always been some kind of glitch that throws a monkey wrench into the relationship. And I think next time around I'm gonna hold out and not get involved in that kinda stuff. Yes, relationships are a compromise and no relationship is perfect...but I think for the time being I'm good on my own until I find something that comes close to being exactly what I want.
"Before you love me
There's something that your heart should know
If you want me
It's body, sex, mind and soul
I want it all..."
- Alsou "Before You Love Me"
I'm not too proud to compromise and neither should the person I date. Yet the guys I date don't seem to get that and most just have this holier than thou "this is the way I am" kinda attitude and I'm supposed to just "deal with it" and keep going.
No. I don't think so. Those days are through. I'm 24 years old now and if I'm going to play this game, I'm playing for keeps, not a passing phase. Nor do I want to have to "deal with something" that's going to keep on popping up as time goes by... That's not fair to either of the people involved.
And yeah, I know I have alot to offer and when I find someone who's worth it, I'll give it to them, but as of now, there are options but none of them seem viable.
I'm rambling, Sorry...Just thought I'd throw that out there...
Other than that there's not really a ton that's been going on. I have a flat tire again. That sucks. I have no luck with cars, but I guess it could be worse...
I started going tanning again which is fun...it's the most peaceful 10 min of my day...
At any rate, the weather is getting nicer and things will kick into high gear! I have high hopes for the summer of 2004! You should too! Everyone deserves a little happy now and then!
Till Then,
John