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well, ive been talking to chris all night, and its amazing what comfort can come from him. i miss you so bad. i want you. i want you back. i dont care how. i wont try or fight for it, but its what i want. "You will always be my comparrison to anyone, always that one boy." i dont want to be the comparison, i want to be the one. if you must compare then you arent with me and that just isnt enough. you are the one that is in my heart, my blood, my veins. you are all around me no matter how hard i try to reverse it. i went for so long not saying a thing about you even though i was thinking it hoping that it would disappear, but it didnt. it is amazing what you can find in other people. i wish you were here now. i wish i could touch you, and kiss you, and smell you. i still remember the way you taste, but the memory is slightly faded. its not good enough. is this a cry, id like to say no, but thats not my judgement now considering that my judgement is nothing now. i miss you with every part of my being. chris opened up some tonight. he talked of what love was to him. he talked about how love to him meant forever. he had a chance at getting it and fucked it up. he still regrets it today but he lost it. he never had it. i am lucky because i had it. but at the same time i am not because i lost it. i want you for the rest of my existance. i want to plan my life around you. i dont care how scary or serious it sounds for me to say that because that is all i thought about when we were together. all of the talk about college and where you where going and what you were doing, that is what i was thinking about. i lost the best thing i have ever had. i want it back, but there is no way for me to get it. people will laugh at me for how stupid and gullible i am. for how i am chasing an impossible dream. how impossible is it. it is easy to find something that you are happy with and dont have to fight or hope for, but it is meaningful to have something that you fight to have and keep, something that you fight to make right. i could have fought to stop you. i dont think it would have helped, but i could have. i could have chosen different words, but i just chose to instigate more trouble...
"Sooner Or Later"
I want a normal life
just like a new born child
I am a lover hater
I am an instigator
You are an oversight
Don't try to compromise
I'll learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated
[Pre-Chorus]
Just call my name
You'll be okay
Your scream is burning through my veins
Sooner or later your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw your life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw your life away
You're like an infantile
I knew it all the while
You sit and try to play me
Just like you see on tv
I am an oversight
Just like a parasite
Why am I so pathetic
I know you won't forget it
[Pre-chorus]
Sooner or later your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw my life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw my life away
Sooner or later your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw our life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw our life away
Throw our life away
Ooooo
Throw our life away
it is all just to hard to try and comprehend that i am without it. i cannot stand the thought of everything having fallen to pieces. i dont want to cause problems anymore. i dont want to start the fight. i want to fight for the goodness that is left in life. you are everything. you are the one that i see myself with. you are my comparrison as well, but i dont want to compare. i want to say," hey ladies, im what you cant have because colleen is the one that has my heart, the one that captivates my happiness, yall may be fun to talk to, but she makes me who i am" i cant say that. i dont have the right. i am the lost little boy from 7th grade that started the problems way back then, i feel like the storm wont stop. i fear that the rain is here to stay...
"Rain"
Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
i dont want to be the one left without. i am, but i dont want to be. i was built to lose, i was made to succeed without the things that i care for, but i can conquer with the things that give me the superhuman strenghts to take on any obstacle. i hate that i fuck things up so bad. i just want someone, a very specific someone to stay with me...
"Stay With Me"
Baby, the clock on the wall is lying
It's not really that late
It's too cold outside to be walking around
the streets of this town
Anywhere if you think you have to be can wait
[Chorus]
(Baby) So why don't you stay with me?
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Baby, there's just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out
[Chorus]
(Baby) Why don't you stay with me?
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe
the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
We'll be alright as long as you stay with me
[Bridge]
Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket
So Stay
[Repeat chorus]
Stay with me
why are you my strength and my cryptonite? i dont decide the future or whats best for me anymore. i just had to get out what has been laying on my heart for so long. im sorry... i kept saying what everyone did wrong instead of saying what i wanted. i kept pointing fingers instead of keeping to what i believe. i am wrong...
"Stars"
[verse 1]
Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and play myself, the outcome feels the same
I've been thinkin maybe I've been partly cloudy, maybe I'm the chance of rain
Maybe I'm overcast, and maybe all my lucks washed down the drain
[pre-chorus]
I've been thinking 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely
[chorus]
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I see someone else
When I look at the stars,
the stars, I feel like myself
[verse 2]
Stars lookin at our planet watching entropy and pain
And maybe start to wonder how the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I've been thinking bout the meaning of resistance, of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent begin to look like home
[pre-chorus]
I've been thinking bout everyone, everyone you look so empty
[chorus]
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I see someone else
When I look at the stars,
the stars, I feel like myself
[bridge]
everyone, everyone you feel so lonely
everyone, yeah everyone you feel so empty
[chorus]
When I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I feel like myself
When I look at the stars, the stars
I see someone...
anyone willing: go to yahoo and go to music. go to the search and search disturbed. go to videos and find stricken. watch that and tell me what you think...
"Sooner Or Later"
I want a normal life
just like a new born child
I am a lover hater
I am an instigator
You are an oversight
Don't try to compromise
I'll learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated
[Pre-Chorus]
Just call my name
You'll be okay
Your scream is burning through my veins
Sooner or later your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw your life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw your life away
You're like an infantile
I knew it all the while
You sit and try to play me
Just like you see on tv
I am an oversight
Just like a parasite
Why am I so pathetic
I know you won't forget it
[Pre-chorus]
Sooner or later your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw my life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw my life away
Sooner or later your gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw our life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw our life away
Throw our life away
Ooooo
Throw our life away
it is all just to hard to try and comprehend that i am without it. i cannot stand the thought of everything having fallen to pieces. i dont want to cause problems anymore. i dont want to start the fight. i want to fight for the goodness that is left in life. you are everything. you are the one that i see myself with. you are my comparrison as well, but i dont want to compare. i want to say," hey ladies, im what you cant have because colleen is the one that has my heart, the one that captivates my happiness, yall may be fun to talk to, but she makes me who i am" i cant say that. i dont have the right. i am the lost little boy from 7th grade that started the problems way back then, i feel like the storm wont stop. i fear that the rain is here to stay...
"Rain"
Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
i dont want to be the one left without. i am, but i dont want to be. i was built to lose, i was made to succeed without the things that i care for, but i can conquer with the things that give me the superhuman strenghts to take on any obstacle. i hate that i fuck things up so bad. i just want someone, a very specific someone to stay with me...
"Stay With Me"
Baby, the clock on the wall is lying
It's not really that late
It's too cold outside to be walking around
the streets of this town
Anywhere if you think you have to be can wait
[Chorus]
(Baby) So why don't you stay with me?
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
And we'll be alright as long as you stay with me, yeah
Baby, there's just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out
[Chorus]
(Baby) Why don't you stay with me?
Share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe
the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
We'll be alright as long as you stay with me
[Bridge]
Baby don't go it looks like it's starting to rain
And it's so warm here in this apartment wrapped up in this blanket
So Stay
[Repeat chorus]
Stay with me
why are you my strength and my cryptonite? i dont decide the future or whats best for me anymore. i just had to get out what has been laying on my heart for so long. im sorry... i kept saying what everyone did wrong instead of saying what i wanted. i kept pointing fingers instead of keeping to what i believe. i am wrong...
"Stars"
[verse 1]
Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and play myself, the outcome feels the same
I've been thinkin maybe I've been partly cloudy, maybe I'm the chance of rain
Maybe I'm overcast, and maybe all my lucks washed down the drain
[pre-chorus]
I've been thinking 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely
[chorus]
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I see someone else
When I look at the stars,
the stars, I feel like myself
[verse 2]
Stars lookin at our planet watching entropy and pain
And maybe start to wonder how the chaos in our lives could pass as sane
I've been thinking bout the meaning of resistance, of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent begin to look like home
[pre-chorus]
I've been thinking bout everyone, everyone you look so empty
[chorus]
But when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I see someone else
When I look at the stars,
the stars, I feel like myself
[bridge]
everyone, everyone you feel so lonely
everyone, yeah everyone you feel so empty
[chorus]
When I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars,
when I look at the stars I feel like myself
When I look at the stars, the stars
I see someone...
anyone willing: go to yahoo and go to music. go to the search and search disturbed. go to videos and find stricken. watch that and tell me what you think...